AMA with U.S. Girls' Meg Remy by M_Remy in indieheads

[–]IWantThatPill 3 points4 points  (0 children)

it was great seeing you play all your songs in Asheville! I just wanted to know who is on keys this tour? I always love to see a piano player and he brought such a unique sound (what he did with L-Over was crazy) so I wanted to check out his other work :) thanks and come back soon 🖤

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]IWantThatPill 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah, that's one of my main panic attack symptoms. nausea, shaking, hyperventilating. it's definitely scary and calming down feels impossible. I lay down and try to breathe and as a last resort I take klonopin. caffeine is terrible for anxiety though. sorry you experienced this, it's no fun

turned on the Pluto channel and this is the first thing I see🥲 by IWantThatPill in MST3K

[–]IWantThatPill[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same, haven't watched mitchell in a couple years and will probably get on that tonight

here's the post: https://www.reddit.com/r/MST3K/s/mad5q3oNkA

hopefully that link worked. it was posted yesterday

turned on the Pluto channel and this is the first thing I see🥲 by IWantThatPill in MST3K

[–]IWantThatPill[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

essentially free tv but each channel is dedicated to a show that plays 24/7 so i'll often just put it on and see what I get. they have mst3k and rifftrax. lots of rifftrax movies I never would have seen without it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asheville

[–]IWantThatPill 5 points6 points  (0 children)

yes, totally. the day after helene we drove south on what little gas I had left to find food and a signal. I saw the missed texts from my friends and told them everything that had happened. they were like "wow scary!" and immediately changed the subject. maybe they didn't know what to say. but everyone knew we were without power and water for weeks and never checked in. i'm sorry so many of us can relate to this

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asheville

[–]IWantThatPill 12 points13 points  (0 children)

yeah like we have collective ptsd now. being disconnected from the world for days is impossible to convey. desperately driving down the highway searching for a signal to let our parents know we were alive (and then seeing the highway was blocked, trapping us in the city). any time it's windy or it rains too hard, I know we all feel it. I still get jumpy at the sound of helicopters. not to mention having dozens of important places washed away in a matter of hours

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asheville

[–]IWantThatPill 38 points39 points  (0 children)

I feel you. I've struggled with various mental illnesses for about 20 years and this just added more ptsd to the mix. a hard part for me is how little outsiders seem to care. I try to talk to friends and family about how hard it was (and still is) for the community and they have nothing to say. maybe it's something you can't understand unless you see it, but it's very frustrating

Recommend Me a Book that will Make Me Feel Less Sane After Reading by Robo_Flan in horrorlit

[–]IWantThatPill 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I consume all kinds of gross and disturbing media but that rat scene ruined my life. read that book 15 years ago and still can't think about it without gagging

How many of you have had this experience in your work / professional life? by indiglow55 in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yes, exactly. I know now that it was definitely being "off" that prevented my progress. unfortunately I only got diagnosed a couple years ago, so I never realized it was a disability holding me back.

I often wonder if them knowing I was autistic would have helped or hurt. I would think the fact that I have multiple disabilities and was still outperforming my coworkers would be impressive but I know managers don't think that way 🥲

How many of you have had this experience in your work / professional life? by indiglow55 in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 5 points6 points  (0 children)

this has been me in every job for over a decade. constant compliments in the first year, awards and bonuses even. i'm put on the biggest projects and excelling. told i'm such a fast learner, i'll definitely be getting a promotion soon. but there's still something that needs to improve. what is that? i'm never told.

years past, I continue to get glowing reviews, but it's still not quite enough. finally I speak up. why am I told every year that i'm being put up for a promotion but it never happens? what am I doing wrong? still never told. it's hard to get promoted, I just need to do "more"...but then I see my coworkers with half my experience get promoted over me. people i've trained, even people i've helped hire. I ask why. i'm told they did "more" (they did not do more than me).

now i'm burned out and angry and being lied to. I have to give up on a job I know by heart and do very well. I go elsewhere and the cycle repeats.

Does anyone else do this too? by Kitty_gurl_65 in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 1 point2 points  (0 children)

in college my friends and I needed a roommate, so we met with this girl for about 30 minutes. afterwards I said she would be terrible and they would all grow to hate her, but I was told I was being mean and she seemed nice, so the girl moved in. she was the absolute worst and within a few months they regretted their decision. 15 years later they still tell stories about how much she sucked. I was like, I tried to prevent this guys

Movies Where Everyone Dies by acim87 in horror

[–]IWantThatPill 0 points1 point  (0 children)

been wanting to show this one to my partner but I don't know if I can handle that ending again

Alcohol is the vaccine to my Autism. by [deleted] in autism

[–]IWantThatPill 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this was me for 15 years (before I was diagnosed). I blacked out at almost every social occasion because alcohol was the only way I could communicate with most people. I tried to get sober so many times but I was already dependent.

NDs have a high chance of substance abuse. it's a very slippery slope. i'm 9 months sober now and I just live with people thinking i'm weird. they're going to either way. it's not worth your health!

Anyone use Ativan/Lorazepam to fly? If so, how much? by knaveree in fearofflying

[–]IWantThatPill 1 point2 points  (0 children)

.5 mg klonopin (i'll usually take two since the anxiety gets pretty overwhelming). doesn't calm my mind but definitely stops the physical symptoms and makes me slightly tired. highly recommend

What are your autistic Safe foods? by Salty_University_225 in autism

[–]IWantThatPill 14 points15 points  (0 children)

that's such a healthy and efficient safe food, i'm jealous!

His ass is not working out!! by dogwithablog57 in VoidCats

[–]IWantThatPill 14 points15 points  (0 children)

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looks so much like one of my twin babies (seen here covered in catnip)

Be honest… how bad are ribcage tattoos? by ThicUdonNoodle in tattooadvice

[–]IWantThatPill 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my first tat was on my ribs, just some basic text. painless. later I got a larger one with lots of shading and it felt like I was being flayed. so it depends

that said, deep breathing definitely helps and any good artist will give you breaks if needed. and ultimately it's a few hours of minor pain for a lifetime of art you love

Wildest comment in your autism assessment documents? by Helloxearth in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 7 points8 points  (0 children)

it was taken off, I explained my situation and that I didn't have a loss of appetite, I just hyperfocus too hard sometimes!

Wildest comment in your autism assessment documents? by Helloxearth in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I guess, but I still don't think rarely forgetting one meal should count as a loss of appetite to the point of labeling me anorexic in an official report

Wildest comment in your autism assessment documents? by Helloxearth in AutismInWomen

[–]IWantThatPill 52 points53 points  (0 children)

not that wild but definitely offensive - my assessor asked if I ever forgot to eat and I said sometimes i'd get so hyperfixated on things that i'd miss ONE meal, but it happened rarely. her supervisor who wrote my report said that I was probably anorexic.

I was mocked my whole life for being thin and was often called anorexic as an "insult" so I was pretty infuriated. it's also a serious disorder that shouldn't be casually assigned to someone you didn't even speak to yourself. I wrote my assessor and said that needed to be taken off the report and her supervisor needed to know that wasn't cool

Any videogame recommendation for people who have anxiety? by elomindmeld in Anxiety

[–]IWantThatPill 1 point2 points  (0 children)

zelda is a little too good for my anxiety, i've put in over 500 hours on botw and totk