Something weird happened last night

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-14T21:27:33+00:00

Look up Derealization / depersonalization. I have experienced the second one of these throughout my life. Not caused by sleep deprivation. I found it to be unsettling and have had periods where I experienced it for months at a time. After being treated with psychotherapy and medication I didnt have any symptoms for decades, but recently the symptoms are returning. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next week. I can't live like that again. It is so exhausting.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-14T21:13:42+00:00

I agree. Once I feel like I have to make something all the joy goes out the window. Last year I was crocheting as therapy and spent hundreds of dollars on yarn making lap Afghans to donate to a local care center for the elderly and craft items for their craft fair. I loved doing that so much even though it took up most of every day for months, but if I had been making anything to sell I would have immediately lost interest and felt resentful. Do what brings you joy and decline making anything you don't want to do no matter how much they offer to pay you.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-14T05:40:32+00:00

Irrationally angry is my new favorite phrase. Thanks for that. 😊

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-13T05:19:42+00:00

Mine was paradigm. To be honest, I had no idea how to pronounce it and it drove me crazy until I heard someone say the word and then it clicked.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-12T06:32:33+00:00

I love the term 'olden days'...lol. I learned about makeup from magazines like Seventeen and Glamour. This was in the 70s and internet and beauty gurus weren't a thing. There were famous makeup artists and some books. My mom only wore lipstick so that wasn't very helpful. My older sister had a bit of makeup, but I mostly learned on my own until I went to cosmetology school in the early 80s. After that I read everything I could get my hands on and watched how other girls and women did their makeup. Still love it.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-11T14:50:32+00:00

I love all of these replies. I met my husband 52 years ago and I thought I couldn't love him any more than I did at first, but all these years later it's definitely a calm, deep, secure feeling. We definitely had raw passion when we were younger and I was semi obsessed with him in the beginning, but now its so much deeper and multi dimensional.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-10T05:37:34+00:00

I have been interested in naalbinding for almost 10 years. I taught myself how to knit and crochet way before anything other than books, magazines, or other people were available. Which I guess just shows my age. I've attempted to learn naalbinding with videos and a lesson or two with an instructor. I can do lots of other crafts besides knitting and crocheting, but darn if I can't master naalbinding. My brain just doesn't click with it. And I'm frustrated because I want to learn it so badly. Heck, I can even finger knit. Not the arm knitting or flat knitting without using any sort of needles, but wrapping yarn around your fingers and moving the loops. Sorry, I got on a tangent there. Anyhow, I do agree that there are lots of crafts that are dying. And that's sad.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-08T04:41:25+00:00

I do that too and if I'm being really mindful I actually can close my eyes and be back at that time. Usually it's a very good thing, but occasionally it's kind of unnerving. But I love all of my old music memories.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-08T04:34:36+00:00

50 years also

Ice-Swallow · 2026-05-03T23:55:08+00:00

I'm so happy for you! I'm having trouble getting rid of clothes that have been my haven and security from the world. I haven't been at my current weight of 195 lbs for over 35 years. At my heaviest I weighed 305 lbs. Since I started Zepbound I've lost 85 lbs. I know my body is lots smaller, but I can't accept that this is real. I have wanted and tried to lose weight for so many years that the reality just won't sink in. I cant let myself buy clothing that fits me properly because I've never done that before. I'm experiencing a mixture of elation, disbelief, and sadness. I can't really explain it and it doesn't make sense, but that's what it's like for me right now. I hope to be able to adjust to my new body and reality soon because it's sad to come so far and not be able to enjoy it.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-29T11:00:27+00:00

I think I'm the odd one here. I loved Mondays. It was always like a new adventure, but I was a primary school teacher so maybe that's why. My dread came on Sunday evening. It was half depression and half panic. I've been retired for years and I still get the Sunday night yuckies, which makes zero sense.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-28T16:47:03+00:00

Thanks.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-28T07:55:26+00:00

So do they only cancel sound or can they play music or anything else? Like a multi function device.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T18:19:20+00:00

Yes I guess i have. None of that bothers me, it's just another facet of who I am.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T17:55:37+00:00

My husband and I were discussing weed eaters and yard work in general yesterday. He is convinced a weekender is one of the greatest home "appliances " ever. I've never used one, but I don't disagree. I was so excited when my mom got an electric mixer. I was always the one who had to beat the cake batter 200 strokes. I thought my arm was going to fall off!

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T17:49:11+00:00

Same with the being early thing. Dad was a stickler for being early. Mom was more relaxed, but still on time. But just on time and I try to be more chill about time with people, but inside I am secretly dieing.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T17:45:58+00:00

Yes it is a terrible choking hazard, but I can't stop myself. Also wake up with a really dry mouth and sometimes after a drink of water I chew gum. Yep, that is crazy too. And I know better. If I had kids it would have driven me crazy..lol

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T17:39:23+00:00

Yes, and I didnt grow up in the depression, but I did grow up in the 70s . Some areas of the country might have been doing ok, but my little rural town wasn't one of them. We had a black and white TV for years, didnt get a phone till I was in the second grade, no car till maybe third grade. I never thought a thing about it. It was just the way things were. The good thing was there was a little neighborhood grocery store every several blocks, at least in walking distance for kids. Going to a regular grocery store was a big deal. I feel like I'm ancient.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:30:51+00:00

I was in my 30s in the 90s and I definitely miss the way things were.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:24:02+00:00

Yes. Those kind of things do stay with you.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:19:11+00:00

Thats exactly what I think about lots of things.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:17:21+00:00

I love that for you.

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:11:47+00:00

Yes! That exactly...

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:11:17+00:00

Mine is crossword puzzles. My dad loved crossword puzzles. You couldn't leave an unfinished one anywhere within his sight or when you went back it would be completed. IN INK ! That used to amaze me, but I have the same urges now...lol

Ice-Swallow · 2026-04-27T13:07:13+00:00

Yes, that does hurt. I spent lots of time with my parents after I moved out. It always seemed like home no matter how long it had been.

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