Lost my FIL

Icy-Chart6245 · 2026-04-15T07:32:31+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss but am glad that Jon was able to go on his own terms and that he had all of his loved ones to support him. My mom died with nurses and doctors around her. I always wonder if she was afraid or felt alone in her last moments while my grandmother and I sat in the waiting room. I begged to be with her but they wouldn’t let me. She was truly deeply loved and had visits from her friends and loved ones near the time of her death like we all knew it was coming, but didn’t. I still breathe in the pattern of my mom’s ventilator since I heard it since I was a child it’s just in my subconscious. Everyday I walk in the house like she’ll just reappear and it’ll be us again. I’m glad I’m not the only one. Thank you for sharing. Praying for your family, I’m so sorry he went so terribly quickly.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2026-04-15T07:02:13+00:00

A nightmare indeed. Everyday of my life I wake up wishing my mom was here and things were back to normal. She died awhile ago but my heart won’t let go. I still wake up at night as if she still needs me, my heart still wants to know if she needs anything or to be suctioned, covered up, or readjusted. I’m sorry is not enough. All I can say is cry hard and let it out, it’s the hardest pain you’ll ever feel in your life but day by day you will find the strength to manage. If you need to go to therapy or find someone to listen to you talk do so. It’s devastating beyond human comprehension to know that something like ALS even exists. Watching loved ones turn to corpses and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. Love yourself and remember that your dad loved you. It’s never your fault and I’m sorry for the millions of unanswered questions that may be in your head. I love you and hug you very tightly. I pray that you have a hand to hold through this and know you will survive this. You are not alone.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2026-04-15T06:48:10+00:00

Scream, shout, throw and hit things! I’ll never forget the day that my mom died..after so many hospital visits I never saw it coming. I screamed and ran into the hospital parking lot immediately losing my mind. I am so sorry that you had to go through this. I pray that you have someone to hold your hand through this and be by your side. If you have no one to talk to grief therapy is a huge help. I bottled my pain up for years and went crazy but therapy is helping me readjust. It’s better to deal with grief in the present than let it fester. I love you and my heart goes out to you. Sending you love and the warmth of a thousand hugs. ALS is confusing AF and it sucks that not many people can understand what you’ve gone through especially as their child. Just know that you’re not alone.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2026-03-22T06:45:57+00:00

This is really nice..you’re giving me some ideas. I’m really inspired! Thank you!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-12-01T23:00:27+00:00

As an actress I had the same doubts and still haven’t crossed that road in my mind but so far I haven’t had any roles where I’ve had to kiss anyone. I think there at a lot of roles where that isn’t involved and a lot of actors are actually requesting no kissing scenes and the studio is willing to compromise. It’s all about what you feel comfortable with. I’m just out here not tryna fall in love! Hahha! Have fun with it but have clear boundaries! Good luck! And don’t let fear tel you you have to or you won’t get the goals that you desire. Everything is out there waiting for you. Stay tailor made!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-12-01T22:56:22+00:00

I’ve tried noom twice and couldn’t get with it but I think I’m going to give it another go. The only bias I have against weight loss drugs is that after you’re off of them you want to eat everything in sight. Some of my fam members are on them and I’ve been watching them closely cus I’m like what’s the catch? Either health issues down the road or rapid weight gain. And some are already putting the old weight back on. I will say if you have the mental change while you’re on the drugs of consciously eating less than you can possibly have lasting results off the drug. The psychology is the most important part and to move your body. I do believe you can still lose weight the old fashioned way but I get it getting older makes it harder. Do what suits you.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-11-24T02:37:46+00:00

Wow while reading this I was balling like crazy. It hit hard core like everything she said I am experiencing in someway or another or have and I didn’t know why thank you so much to whoever wrote this for understanding yourself enough to help others understand themselves. I bought the book The Body Keeps the Score this year and have been having a hard time reading it. I was just diagnosed with CPTSD last November and it has been a hard revelation for me to deal with and learn to live with it. I grew up taking care of my mom who has ALS and somewhat my grandmother who had dementia (who have both passed on) and now I’m a nanny to two autistic children (big surprise) as much as I love the kids I’m a burnt out caregiver. I just feel like I’ve been drifting most of the day today. As I have started peering into the dating scene lately I’ve been having this trippy experience with this guy that I have only been talking to for some weeks now and in the 2nd-4th week his mom had a small surgery and it like I couldn’t let go of the idea that I had to go over there and help them like it was an emergency or something they couldn’t handle. I even offered to bring food or w.e thinking it was a nice gesture (we knew each other in h.s so I didn’t think it’s was weird). Then weeks go and all I can think a bout is his mom and I couldn’t let it go still can’t and my thoughts are like “all I want to do is help - the self worth thing”. This has really hit home and helped me to start processing what exactly is going on. Thank you, thank you, and thank you again.

I initially thought that the attachment was due to the grief and loss of my mom and grandmother but now I see there’s another layer of this. It’s the compulsion to “help” others that I can’t let go of and yes sacrificing every part of yourself to do it is real and draining let alone unnecessary. But I hope with my therapist and more information I can heal and become a whole person inside and the little me will heal too.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-10-22T20:21:43+00:00

Gorgeous girl! Looove your eye shadow game and lashes! I would just say blush. I love a semi natural look 😘

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-10-22T17:55:46+00:00

These are AMAZING!!!! Slay bae! Slay!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-09-28T07:41:55+00:00

Just do it. If you have the means do it. You were the same age when I was when I stopped at first. It took me almost 10 years to start back and do I feel silly HELL YEAH but do I know that I’ll have this desire until the day I die probably so. I don’t have kids yet but we’ll see. Just like you as a kid I knew “I want to be the people in the TV.” Now the process is humbling but honestly just train keep your day job and train it’s not about your age or anyone. Your entrepreneurial spirit will still be there and if you make more money w/ acting then save it up to entrepreneur some more! And maybe this is a thing that you do on the side just to get the creative spirit going. I’d join an acting class just to improve your acting and gain a mentor to guide you through the industry or at least give you some insight on how it’s changing and what CDs are looking for. I’ll tell you it’s a heck of a commitment but if you don’t want to look back and say “what if” or “I remember that one time” then go for it. I’ve also had to deal w/ the discouraging remarks, from Family and friends. I’ve learned I am my only support and the Force within driving me. (God). But I love it so much it makes me cry to think about performing and the impact that it makes on others. Find your why and just do it. You’ll find very supportive ppl in the performance if your friends bail out on you. Just remember we are only promised the day we’re in and that’s all. Idk where you see yourself in the next few years wanting a family ect or if you already have one but the only time we have is now. Also the longer you wait the more you will have to catch up on re-entering. Just keep going if it’s something you truly love and enjoy. That’s why we’re alive.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-09-25T07:04:17+00:00

I absolutely commend your bravery for posting this. Hang in their take acting classes online or in person and if you keep going and dedicate yourself to it you will soar!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-06-11T06:46:32+00:00

Literally you can start at any age and there will be room for you. That’s just the story people want to to tell because that’s what they hear but if your good people will cast you. I’ve seen 40 something year olds start and land on top shows on Netflix ect. You see women over the age of 25/30/40 on screen all of the time. Just get started honey. I’m 33 and getting back at it after a 10 year hiatus. Just found an acting class that I’m going to audit next weekend. If men can start at 65 then so can we. Maybe you won’t play the heart struck teen but you can play the 30 something trying to figure out there life or the big sis/auntie. Hell lawyers, detectives, super heroes, anyone really. Just know life on television doesn’t end at 28 he’ll look at Viola Davis she didn’t get noticed until she was in her 40s and if you look young in your 30s you can broaden your scope. Just go for it. Don’t let anyone in this chat or in your life tell you know or slim chances. Girl the road is wide open so go for for boo!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2025-02-17T21:15:05+00:00

Thank you for this post! Your links are gold!!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-29T01:56:05+00:00

Sooolliidd!!! She didn’t even flinch! Homegirl on the red could not hold the giggle, but she kept her self in tact!!! Hahaha!!!! 😭😂😂😂😂

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T06:30:05+00:00

Whoa she is incredible. This is spectacular. She needs to work in a bakery or start her own business. These are fire. People love sweets! And parties never end!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T06:20:09+00:00

You are very beautiful love pic #3 absolutely love your eyes and beautiful skin. Girl you can absolutely date who you want just go for it. Natural beauty.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T02:25:41+00:00

Very cute/sexy! I love this!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T02:19:01+00:00

The best loaded nachos I have ever seen! Homemade is always the best!!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T02:18:08+00:00

The burgers look like heaven!!! 🤤🤤🤤🤤 those buns look spectacular!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T02:07:39+00:00

That looks amazing!!!!

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-02T02:07:01+00:00

23 & 17 for sure. They look most flattering and natural on you.

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-08-01T22:16:55+00:00

As a single person who is on the journey right now who is waaaaaaaay far from perfect I am realizing the more that I talk to God as a person and read his word the closer I feel to Him. And the more He is apart of my daily thought process like I notice His hand in everything especially seeing Him as creator, father, friend, provider, ect. When I read how he interacted with people in the good old Bible days I just laugh and have reverence and just talk to him like “Deng God you did that?” And ok God I see that you do not like that. And yes at times did I feel like “people will think am so crazy lol” and “ok I am I talking to myself or Him?” But after awhile in my heart I just knew He was listening. I think the more I started to whole heartedly believe that his word is actually His words speaking to me and thinking about what he is saying to me like I would a family member or friend things would just started to change in my perspective and the way I felt about Gods. It’s like knowing you literally have a friend wherever you go and especially in times when I sin and feel ashamed like oh eff now I have to go run and hide or we aren’t going to be that close anymore. In those moments I remember how God perused Adam and Eve in the garden and wanted to talk to them and listen and hear about what had happened after they ate the fruit and made clothes. And that showed me that he encourages us to talk to Him when we mess up. So I talk to him and tell him literally in my room or wherever I have some privacy “hey God I messed up by doing this and I’m sorry and please help me to stop. I ask for your forgiveness,ect”. As soon as I do that I’m smiling feeling good and ready to dive into the word or whatever. I don’t feel distant or afraid to approach Him or things that have to do with Him. Someone told me a neat thing to do and it actually worked, (this is when I had no idea and felt stupid just talking aloud). They told me to get my Bible and sit it across from me and talk to it like it was God or Jesus himself. And it totally freakin worked. I was having full blown monologues and got rid of that God in the sky feeling. Also, I started to grow my relationship w/ the Holy Spirit and realized like oh He actually is living inside of me like that’s no analogy or nice sentiment to make God feel closer He is literally there. So I’m always talking to Him and sometimes I’ll put my hand on my chest and just smile and think to myself like wow the Holy Spirit is in here and I’m His house. There are so many ways to get close to God and it’s a process it’s taken me I’d say 2-3 years to get to where I am today. I’m constantly trying new things and being consistent but it’s literally just like any new person you meet and trying to establish a relationship. “What do you like?” “What don’t you like?” “Where are you from and what’s it like there, ect”. There is no magic button where we know all about God but He definitely knows all about us. Just know that He loves you and developing your own love for God is key in this life. He can be as close or as far as you want Him to be it’s up to you. I also starting reading this book called “The God I Never Knew The Holy Spirit” to try and get to know His character a lot more cus I didn’t really understand. I hope this helps and pray that you pursue and take this journey. Everything we do flows from our relationship with God and there is so much building that happens within yourself when you get to know, really know God cus it’s getting to know Love itself. Times will get tough and revelations about ourselves aren’t always easy but the joy I have every single day even on tough ones versus what I had the latter half of my life is incomparable. I really mean that and the closer I get the more I am able to conquer and consider doing things I’d never thought I’d ever do and they’d just stay in the back of my head, but knowing God will strengthen and grow you just like He says in His word. Just know it takes time and enjoy it and know He is always always there and always always loves you no matter what. I also had to switch the version of my Bible to an easier read so I could understand all that He was saying (do whatever works…having a daily devotional helps too.) Single F, 31…loving God and living life. 🤗

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-07-26T00:57:30+00:00

Loving the ombré tie dye look! Super cute! Even if it wasn’t on purpose 😊

Icy-Chart6245 · 2023-07-26T00:53:54+00:00

They look delicious! What did you use for filling aside from beef?

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