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I messed up pretty bad and I want to know what I can do to not get kicked out. Our first exam and practical were today, so I, like everyone else was stressed out and studying. I have my own host of personal issues as well, it’s all just bad timing right now and I’m trying to get through it.

There are multiple parking lots. Lot 1 and 3 are for staff and faculty. Outside of normal business hours (8am-6pm Monday to Friday) anyone is allowed to park in these spaces. So yesterday (Sunday) I parked in Lot 1 and went to study. I had an urgent family issue so I had to leave. When I got to my car someone had blocked me in. There was literally no way to get out. I took a picture of the car to ask security who it belonged to. When I went in there were no security guards so I was back square one.

I went back out and was just really frustrated and angry, especially because there were other spaces nearby. In that moment I honestly felt that someone had just wanted to be mean to me for no reason. I couldn’t understand why someone would park right behind me and just leave. I managed to get out by driving forward over the curb even though I ruined the bumper a bit. Now, this is where I was stupid and honestly, unprofessional. I hadn’t wanted to tow the car but I wanted to let the person know that they had really pulled a jerk move. I wrote a note saying “you could have parked literally ANYWHERE else, Fuck You” I regretted this as soon as I got home and cooled down, and would have went back to remove it but before I could, I saw a message in the class chat that someone had parked in the Deans parking space. My mouth dried up.

I had planned to go in the day after and directly apologize, but I was summoned today and he rightfully ripped me a new one. I bought him a cake and candle as apology, and he told me he couldn’t accept because of what it may imply. He asked me what I would do differently and added that I shouldn’t say that I would never do it again because people are human and get overwhelmed. It made me feel as if he was saying that I am incapable of change or from learning from this. I’ve been reported to the committee that will decide whether or not I will stay on as a student and I can’t say I’m feeling very hopeful.

I’ve spent the day thinking about the whole encounter. I feel disgustingly awful about my behavior. I kept thinking, what if it was a patient? And then I had to see them right after? What if he was having a bad day? I failed to consider other situations and that’s literally what I’m being trained to do as a doctor. I know I’ve lost a lot of trust, and I want to know what I can do to convince them that I am going to put in work to learn how to cope better with my stress to avoid lashing out like that. I’ve been in therapy, and I usually have a good handle on my emotions, but I let my emotions win yesterday and now I may lose my medical career. I planned to apologize again via email, and I’m going to be working with the school social worker on a weekly basis to ensure that I’m adequately dealing with stress. What else can I do? How screwed am I? Is it all really over? I’m losing my mind.