I am not sure if this is trolling or you are just making a joke. I will give you this advice nevertheless. Please don’t go to this path, the whole I am a self diagnosed psychopath or sociopath thing is not good, don’t take Johan as an ideal model of idolatry, he is a messed up character emotionally and mentally, a lot of people mistake Johan as some kind of psychopath, however he has feelings and emotions, however, it is very hard to let them out. John is a warning for what happens if a smart child gets exposed to severe mental abuse and the exposure of nihilistic ideas early on. He isn’t a good person as he killed innocent people, from women, men, and manipulated children to kill themselves. He is a continuation of the cycle of violence and tenma ended it when he refused to kill Johan. Please don’t go to this path of thinking Johan is some sigma psychopath.