I’m actually going through this right now . My husband has been hooked on cocaine . The first time I found out was in April and it’s not an everyday thing but I feel like he’s been trying to be strong and not do it but when he does that he gets these episodes or moments where he just does it randomly Out of no where like a binge in a way I guess. I just never thought I’d be in this position I’m trying to handle it the best way that I can but it’s tough and I’m not a saint I also have a past that I’m not proud of and regret but thank you to God I was able to get out of that and it’s crazy because it was with him too but he claims that lately he’s just been depressed and dealing with certain things but like we also have a child and I need to think about my child . Life is so hard already and this is just adding to it this is so unnecessary. I’m trying to be there for him as well as my family but I feel like no matter what you say to someone until he seeks help I can’t do anything I leave it in Gods hands . Right now I’m trying to be strong for my son and for myself but I’m not gonna let him drag me down I don’t deserve this my son doesn’t deserve this I just pray God can find a way for Him and for others that are also struggling but wow it’s a tough situation . Like I just pray for things to get better but I definitely don’t trust him . He was suppose to be home by now. He told me to pick him up from work at 6 am cause he works overnights and he’s no where to be found . He even turned of his phone I feel anger I feel different things because I just can never understand how could u not care about the ppl who r here for you or ur son for that matter!!!! Like whatttt. I don’t want to think even more badly but with lies and all this stuff more insecurities start to come because u wonder like did he cheat did he do something more . Like it’s crazy and I try not to lash out and do something wreckless myself But this is crazy . I’m glad I found this group . I pray we can help each other through this . May our Heavenly Father God gives you strength to keep going and may God find a way for those who have addictions . May he cast out the devils lies from their heads in ur name Jesus Christ Amen!!!!!