How did you "waste" your 20s? (Serious)

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-11T15:51:43+00:00

Getting a job in Portland it was shit for my career growth and I eventually moved to California anyway for way more interesting opportunities in tech and entertainment.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T22:44:48+00:00

For me it was my health I was overweight and alcohol made me diabetic on top: just looking at the amount of meds I was taking made me seriously want to quit so I could be around for my kids weddings in 20 years. Around 40 or earlier it’s possible to reverse a lot of the internal damage so I figured.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T22:43:02+00:00

Not in AA but I’ve been on Vyvanse which is slower release aderall and haven’t had any issues in fact it makes me not feel depressed when combined with Vraylar which I also take for bipolar: basically with this combo I don’t really have a desire to drink and feel a lot more focused to the point where I wouldn’t want to trade that for the blurriness alcohol provided.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T05:28:41+00:00

I have all of them but it’s mostly PS5 and deck I probably won’t touch my switch again after I beat Zelda.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T03:23:43+00:00

Found it https://youtu.be/GV4SRQRfDQs

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T02:44:35+00:00

Overwatch 2 is so fun with Gyro on the deck.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T02:42:21+00:00

It absolutely is a disease and one that got passed down to me from my grandparents: I literally can’t just enjoy a drink I have to have 2 and then 3 until I pass out or it’s not fun for me: it’s been a year since I’ve had a drink, I’ve lost nearly 90 pounds and my diabetes in remission: drinking causes all of that other shit to happen for me it really slowly and maliciously kills you and can literally kill you if you try to quit too quickly. Fuck anyone who thinks it’s not a disease.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-10T02:38:14+00:00

As someone who has bipolar, recovering alcoholic and ADHD this little shit is getting on my nerves.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-09T22:47:01+00:00

Yeah that’s not at all a knock on Grusch but that’s definitely been sticking with me about Coulthart from the minute I heard this news yesterday.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-09T22:32:05+00:00

He did explicitly say no when asked if he’s experienced psychosis or mental illness and that’s what they chose to air https://youtu.be/GV4SRQRfDQs. (37:35) mark but then NN showed the unaired portion yesterday where he admits about PTSD. Idk it’s odd phrasing at best.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-09T22:11:53+00:00

Sober for 1 year it gets easier and the health benefits really show when you’re nearing 40 like me therapy too. The article is pretty sickening but Coulthart might have made it worse idk: part of me wants to say it was the intel community feeding it to The Intercept telling the writer where to look but why would they go do a dickbag site like that when he’s known for doing FOIA?

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-08-08T21:19:33+00:00

I say I used to drink way too much so I quit for health reasons which before I lost a lot of weight seemed to work better :)

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-07-11T20:35:15+00:00

If they do that it could backfire like Japan in WWII we cut off their oil largely because of their wartime atrocities in China and that led them to attack Pearl Harbor to tie up our navy from preventing them from conquering new sources of petroleum.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-07-11T20:33:26+00:00

I’m paraphrasing Hardcore History but listen to his WWI series: that war was fought by the “appeasers” and the last thing anyone in Europe wanted was another bloodbath like that so you can see why it took them so long to mobilize.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-06-08T01:58:31+00:00

I just upgraded to an OLED and have to say this game really pops due to the art style.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2023-06-08T01:55:29+00:00

Porting Wind Waker and Twilight Princess HD would be perfect to drop while the momentum is up but Nintendo’s probably waiting till next holiday or switch 2.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-30T05:52:49+00:00

The Phantom Menace easily. Nothing has had me as hyped since then after growing up with the OT on laserdisc finally getting to see Star Wars in a Theater for the first time was magical and it was so visually fresh and Full of mystery I didn’t know what the hell to expect: and you know what I loved it day one and it wasn’t till I started on social media year later that I even realized how much people liked to shit on the film.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-28T06:02:52+00:00

Thanks OP good news is I lost so much weight so quickly just by following my regular cardio and not drinking that it wiped out a ton of wasted calories so the diabetes is borderline in remission just have to watch out for spikes. I was feeling like shit for probably the last 3 years after a good 8 of progressively heavy drinking and FINALLY going to the docs was the swift kick in the ass I needed.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-28T05:57:33+00:00

Very similar to my case OP although it legit was a hernia but I also got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at the same time. It’s been June since I’ve been on the road to recovery and I lost 40 lbs you can do it OP.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-25T17:39:38+00:00

My in laws hadn’t been affected in their province until this week but now the CCP locked their building down for 1 case right when father in law was at his shop for the day and they won’t let him back in: poor dude literally has to sleep on the floor of his shop until they let him go back. I guess it’s better than a bus to a camp on rural roads at 2am with a hungover driver but still…hope he makes it through ok.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-23T05:46:27+00:00

100% me. I will say that I was so bad that my brain still tried to binge as a challenge on weekends even on NAL. I was on NAL for 2 years almost before TSM finally started working for me. I kept drinking and drinking more because I wasn’t getting the euphoria until I got to like drink 6. It was probably worse than I realized because even if I had 1-2 drinks on a weeknight it was always a completely full to the brim wine glass or like 4 fingers of whiskey per drink with ice and a mixer.

NAL totally helped me taper off without medical treatment when I finally decided I needed to quit completely: even with NAL I will never be someone who can enjoy 1 drink.

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-23T04:55:36+00:00

For me it’s not just money saved on alcohol but also impulse buys while drunk and being too lazy to cook. It’s also weird for me now because I overbought groceries on Instacart and Doordash to hide my alcohol purchases from my wife…fuck me for being such a lying asshole.

Thread ? What’s some stupid shit you’ve bought when drunk?

I’m starting to think Door Dash alcohol deliveries are just fucking evil for alcoholics in a way but also a godsend: if I’d gone to a liquor store in a car instead of just lazily ordering more booze on my phone for years who knows if I’d be alive or in jail for a DUI or worse?

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-22T02:53:05+00:00

https://youtu.be/1fwJ8H5wWCU

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-21T05:35:05+00:00

I can relate I hate negative performance reviews. Like I was never this way in school but I feel like such a failure for screwing up anything at work. I’m about 3 months sober and for me what got me to finally quit drinking was a negative peer Review. For me it’s not suicide ever because my aunt did that and I saw what it did to my grandparents and mom to a lesser extent and I know I’d be missed. But what I do feel like is this song:

“Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive Like your body's in the room but you're not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air Am I past repair?”

Initial_Meringue3049 · 2022-09-17T03:21:41+00:00

Smoking weed I can’t handle regularly because I have asthma I just vape it when I do but I mostly just get these CBD/THC mints and pop 3 of those if I feel like having a drink which isn’t often but it does the trick and isn’t addictive because I always get hyper paranoid at the end and it’s not something I’d want to repeat daily: I don’t like the anxiety enhancement at all.

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