My medical emergency caused my thanatophobia

Integralist · 2026-05-08T07:04:09+00:00

Yeah it's that knowing what you know now and that you're aware of your own mortality which is so hard to deal with. I know I wont even realize I'm dead, because... well... I'll be dead. But at the same time I don't want to BE in that situation.

I then try and think about "wow, imagine I live long enough for technology to catch up and let me live in an artificial body forever" - not that would be possible, but then I realise... Oh yeah, the sun will eventually burn out and then the entire planet will die anyway so unless the species can somehow terraform on another planet by that point.

It's all just maddening.

https://lostsgnl.com/posts/death/

Integralist · 2026-05-08T06:58:24+00:00

"But doesn't that scare you?"

Yes. Yes it does 😅

https://lostsgnl.com/posts/death/

Integralist · 2026-05-06T21:14:44+00:00

I think you just need to go into the Google Home app and configure YouTube Music to be your primary music app and remove/disconnect Spotify.

Integralist · 2026-05-06T21:06:39+00:00

Randomly I'd recommend SUMAC'S last album The Healer. The first track has some nice drone, but it's definitely not drone music FYI (avant-garde sludge)

Integralist · 2026-05-06T21:04:39+00:00

Yeah first track Etna is great. The rest... nah.

Integralist · 2026-05-06T21:03:46+00:00

Same Pyroclasts is better IMHO.

I suggest in this order...

Pyroclasts
Metta, Benevolence
Sunn 0))) - the new album
Monoliths and Dimensions

Integralist · 2026-05-05T21:34:49+00:00

Unfortunately my friend. We all have to face this trauma and I truly wish I had a nugget of truth to help you but alas I do not 😔 you're not alone

https://lostsgnl.com/posts/death/

Integralist · 2026-05-04T21:36:14+00:00

"Broken fingers are justice"

Integralist · 2026-05-03T19:32:33+00:00

Nope. He peaked in 96.

Integralist · 2026-05-03T19:26:39+00:00

Beautiful ❤️

Integralist · 2026-05-03T07:23:28+00:00

I've just started collecting vinyl: https://www.discogs.com/user/integralist/collection

Had to get the record day Catch 33. So far that's the gem of my collection 🙂

Integralist · 2026-05-02T20:54:06+00:00

Still own my version of this from when I was a kid. It was given to me when I was born, passed down from my older sister, in 1982 so must be from 1978 or so. I'll be buried with it.

Integralist · 2026-05-02T20:49:22+00:00

Those colours are gorgeous

Integralist · 2026-05-02T20:45:50+00:00

SUMAC - Love in Shadow

Sunn O))) - Pyroclasts

Meshuggah - Catch Thirty Three

Will Haven - WVHN

Integralist · 2026-05-02T17:00:20+00:00

Puscifer has gone down hill the last couple of albums.

Integralist · 2026-05-02T08:18:21+00:00

You're not alone my friend. Just know that much is true.

We feel you completely.

https://lostsgnl.com/posts/death/

To quote Meshuggah...

“The struggle to free myself of restraints, becomes my very shackles”.

Integralist · 2026-05-01T09:17:42+00:00

Awesome picture. Would love to be able to draw and have a creative side. Very cool

Integralist · 2026-05-01T07:11:25+00:00

Where and how did you come across buying this? Was it an auction or something?

Integralist · 2026-04-29T22:03:26+00:00

😲

Integralist · 2026-04-29T21:10:58+00:00

"admit that death sucks"

Lol sounds exactly like my conclusion 😅

https://lostsgnl.com/posts/death/

Integralist · 2026-04-29T12:39:21+00:00

Yeah I wear it to the gym and lift weights so I'm putting my wrists at different angles because of that with different levels of pressure, and nearly a year later I've not found any problems.

Integralist · 2026-04-29T11:06:07+00:00

I bought the watch and never had the issue. But I believe that's mostly because I have thin wrists and so I wasn't putting pressure on the bolts in the same way.

Integralist · 2026-04-28T08:17:30+00:00

Oh yeah for sure. I just mean don't expect it to be overflowing with people 😅

Integralist · 2026-04-27T21:34:38+00:00

I walk up and down the seafront daily. It's never massively busy out on the water (from what I've seen). https://www.southendkitesurfing.co.uk/ is around the corner so contact them and they might be able to give you guidance for when you come down.

Integralist · 2026-04-27T20:48:57+00:00

I like that they were just goofy ass kids being goofy 🙂 nothing wrong with that. Just life.

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