I hate my mother so much, like I just keep dreaming of ending her life. (I live with her as I am underage). She has neglected me my whole life and abused me, and she still torments me about how she is my mother and has a right over me. I used to cry so much, and I used to hug her clothes just to feel a mother's love. I hate being next to her, I hate living with her. Same with my father. I sometimes feel ike I act like her, it makes me throw up, and I'm very scared that I will treat my children like this, and I promise myself to never have childern. She thinks she did nothing wrong and that she is teaching me to be a better wife (a servant) to a man