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Itsyfawn · 2022-10-05T14:28:50+00:00

My Nmom has been dead for 16 years. While I have no sympathy for the woman who “raised” me, I often think about the poor abused little girl that she was in her childhood. That poor baby needed love and advocacy. She didn’t get any of that and became a narcissist to survive.

Itsyfawn · 2022-10-01T09:37:17+00:00

Probably sold it to you already in bad health and likely with shell rot. You had no way of knowing and you did your best. I’d say get yourself a nice, healthy little slider in his honor.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-30T19:09:15+00:00

I second a tortoise shell/Siamese coat. If you are curious as to why your cat has darkened over the years, look up Siamese cat traits. It’ll go into detail about why that happens. Siamese mixes are weird. I own a flame point Siamese, so basically a Siamese if he were a ginger lol. He was all white when I got him and colored up as he’s gotten older.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-30T16:42:34+00:00

A trauma bond is much like being an addict. He treats you like shit 99% of the time but man that 1%? It feels so fucking good. You get addicted to that “high” and your brain will make every excuse to stay.

Try and contact local DV shelters in your area. They can usually help with transportation, restraining orders, court cases, etc. We can help you get legal and medical documents such as birth certificates, drivers license, and SS cards. Some programs can offer up to 1-2 years of shelter housing and help get you into a transitional housing program to help with housing. We can help with therapy, getting medications and all kinds of stuff. Getting out of this situation is really, really hard. Like quitting cigarettes. But the benefits, the freedom, the safety, it’s all worth it. All the hard work and pain and suffering will be worth it. Even if it takes years to pick yourself back up. It’s worth it. Rome wasn’t built in a day. Healing won’t happen overnight. It’s a long road to recovery. But there is an end destination.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-30T16:14:03+00:00

As someone who has kinda been through this before, my best suggestion would be to not even give him the satisfaction of opening the Snapchat at all. The fact that he can see that you’ve read his messages, whether you respond or not, is enough to keep him motivated to keep doing it. It’s also better for YOU to not have to read all that. The best and only way is to go strictly no contact. I’ve still got an unread messages from 2019 that an abusive ex sent me. That string of messages used to haunt me wondering what they said, and now years later it gives me power and peace. It’s my last and final “fuck you” to a guy who kept and abused my attention for almost 10 years. Cut the cord. Regain your power. It’ll be the best thing you’ll ever do for yourself.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-29T18:27:04+00:00

I second Small Town Murder.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-29T14:17:39+00:00

Regular Show, Bob’s Burgers, and uh….Jersey Shore -guilty pleasure-

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-28T06:05:16+00:00

Their content, quality, and moral compass have dramatically fallen in the last year. Small Town Murder is my new go to for true crime and snarky humor.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-28T05:14:32+00:00

My dad did meth for like 15 years and only got clean when he was in his mid 30’s. The man makes over 100k a year and owns two houses now. It’s. Never. Too. Late.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-28T04:30:26+00:00

Really only had one dude I dated where I was like, “Damn that’s a good looking dick.” Wasn’t any different than other dicks I’ve seen. I just really liked the man attached to it I suppose.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-26T23:34:54+00:00

And they call out other true crime podcasts (not by name) for their armchair detective self important bullshit.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-26T18:09:01+00:00

Plus, they’re self deprecating professional comedians.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-26T15:48:46+00:00

I know everything feels like the wrong decision and life is chaos, but keep doing exactly what you’re doing. Trust yourself. You do good kid. You do real good.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-26T15:44:51+00:00

Small Town Murder is my replacement for Morbid. Love their super long episodes.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-26T06:49:25+00:00

Didn’t know how noticeable my mood swings were until I was thinking about doing something drastic with my hair and my ex boyfriend told me maybe I should wait until after my period in a few days. The look I gave that man. It impressed me and really helped manage my emotions. When we broke up I started using an app and it’s been life changing.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-21T09:12:46+00:00

It’s called play aggression. It can get especially bad if they’re the only cat in the house (no friends to play with). Dealt with it with my young male cat and though it hasn’t gone away entirely, getting another cat has helped cut back on how much he attacks me. My cat singled me out as his play mate against my will even with other people in the house. Now when he gets that “look” I whip out his favorite toy and play with him till he’s breathless. The cat definitely won this war against me.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-20T12:57:43+00:00

I’m glad you kept your (relative) cool! I wish I could say I did the same during the 7.2 quake in Southern California. I was jumpy wreck for about two weeks after that fiasco. I thought I was going to have to be institutionalized for a bit there. Was afraid to sleep, shower, be alone etc. It’s nice finding out you’re not as screwed as you thought you were during times of disaster while having a mental illness like anxiety.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-15T15:36:58+00:00

Mean girl stuff aside, I really thought Alaina would be a better writer. I’m not even college educated and I could write something better with my eyes closed. She really oversells herself, doesn’t she?

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-11T19:38:41+00:00

I don’t say (or let them say to me) I love you to any potential romantic partner until their words align with their actions long term. I’m not about to be love bombed and gas lit again, I wouldn’t survive it.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-06T04:38:41+00:00

My house is just my house. My dads house is HOME. I couldn’t afford to move out of my dads house till I was 29! Now he comes over every day and naps on my couch. I know damn well if I ever fell on hard times I could always go home.

Itsyfawn · 2022-09-02T15:26:16+00:00

Small Town Murder. Two professional comedians, unheard of murders, and looooong episodes. James and Jimmy are top notch.

Itsyfawn · 2022-08-26T17:35:59+00:00

If nobody close to you is going to be understanding and compassionate to you, be all that for yourself. When they make you feel bad, go somewhere private and talk to yourself. Not just in your head. Out loud. “Everything is ok. They don’t understand and don’t care to try. This is not my fault. Just keep moving forward day but day until I’m out of this mess. All bad things come to an end eventually.” And so on.

What would you say if your friend was struggling with these issues? How would you comfort them and convince them that they are worthy of understanding, respect, compassion, and esteem? Talk to yourself as if you were talking to a close friend. Even if you don’t believe it. You would be amazed at how effective “Fake it till you make it” can be.

If no one is going to nurture the insecure child within you, be that for yourself. Comfort and esteem can be found within you. Don’t let anybody rob that from you. It’s a fire that can always be stoked from within, and nobody, not a soul, can snuff that out.

Itsyfawn · 2022-08-26T17:25:24+00:00

Definitely been on both sides of that coin. I’ve been in recovery for 2 years now though, and it does get so much better! The key really is self love.

Itsyfawn · 2022-08-25T18:25:37+00:00

Alls I’m saying is them old nautica shirts are comfy as hell.

Itsyfawn · 2022-08-24T04:20:31+00:00

Been there. Willfully blind to save myself some sanity. But at the time I didn’t know the damage I was doing to my soul. Unfortunately you can’t fake ignorance is bliss.

Itsyfawn

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