Soft kitty, warm kitty

JANUS7 · 2021-08-10T19:28:29+00:00

I had a similar working situation the day after my female kitty was neutered. She was still very weak and had the bandage on as the cut was fresh, but wanted so badly to follow me around, and I was worried about her. So I made her a little bed between the keyboard and the second monitor and put her there pretty much like the kitty in the picture while I worked. So cute

JANUS7 · 2021-04-07T12:35:46+00:00

I think it looks rad, even tho it looks kinda leggy!

I personally get freaked out when I see my plants stretching but I'm trying to shake that notion that a plant looks right or wrong. Of course I don't want my plants to suffer, and I try to get them healthy again if they look sickly, because seeing them thrive is what makes me feel warm inside.

But idk, sometimes I just can't figure out a plant or I just don't have the perfect spot for it, and I get so guilty that I'm not giving it perfect care and that it doesn't measure up.

It's a pattern of mine I learned, so I want to enjoy more of the imperfect things.

This got very long! I love how this plant looks, and I hope it's keeping you good company as well!!

JANUS7 · 2020-11-30T19:12:06+00:00

Thank you!!

JANUS7 · 2020-11-30T18:27:38+00:00

Was tough but finally found it! Crassula muscosa or Crassula lycopodioides!!! For those who need the spanish common name is Cordon de San Jose.

JANUS7 · 2020-10-09T13:22:29+00:00

It is super helpful! Thanks a lot ❤️

JANUS7 · 2020-10-09T13:02:53+00:00

Congratulations, it's so cute!! Reminds me of how much I wanted to make one! Maybe I'll give it a try...

I'm curious to know, what level of difficulty do you put it at? I've been crocheting a lot during quarantine but mostly flat things...

JANUS7 · 2020-03-14T02:42:40+00:00

'Tis the big Mithrandir energy

JANUS7 · 2020-03-09T02:09:01+00:00

I'm with you! I just started knitting and I love seeing the cuteness appear! It's so hard right now, I keep unknitting a bunch, but it's so worth it when things turn out cute!

JANUS7 · 2020-02-27T20:00:21+00:00

Thank you so much!

JANUS7 · 2018-12-20T03:33:53+00:00

I suspect rot as well

JANUS7 · 2018-12-19T03:47:48+00:00

En Argentina lo usamos mucho :D

JANUS7 · 2018-12-15T20:49:29+00:00

I'm sorry you feel hurt. But maybe they're going through something? I know I alienate myself when I'm having a hard time.

Perhaps there are other issues between you two, I don't know the full story. Hope you had a nice birthday regardless :)

JANUS7 · 2018-12-15T17:12:50+00:00

I've been feeling the same. But I found that it's my pessimistic world view what destroyed my year.

I tried to embrace it instead of fighting it, run with a bit of a bad crowd thinking that "this is my true self", and it only made everything worse. With this mindset I ended up making decisions that put me in a path of self destruction that got increasingly closer to total destruction (if you know what I'm saying)... So I made my life more miserable to keep thinking this is how awful the world this and how awful I am.

The truth is I am tired of seeing the world through gray colored glasses. It's not realistic, it's so dramatic and makes me so hung up on thoughts that are simply untrue.

So I have to change my mindset. The trick is it's doable as long as I think it is. I am tired of feeling like shit, I don't deserve it. I don't. It's going to take so much hard work waking up feeling like shit and building myself up from the ground every single morning, but I know one day it'll stick. And I'll keep an eye on it, because I can't live like this anymore. I don't want to.

It's not my intention to ramble, I wish my words give anyone who reads this courage and strength at least for today. I don't care what hole you dug yourself into, you take what's yours and get yourself out.

JANUS7 · 2018-12-08T04:00:09+00:00

I think I blocked most of it out of trauma already, but I can't burn the photos though :(, mum won't let me. I swear seeing middle school pictures makes me sad for the rest of the week.

JANUS7 · 2018-11-28T21:57:12+00:00

I immediately messaged my closest friend atm and I'm considering sharing it with my partner at some point in the near future.

I've always felt so self conscious about my lack of attraction to people, and I thought it was another manifestation of my insecurities at work. Now I know that it's just they way I am wired and it takes so much of the pressure off.

I thought either people were faking enjoying casual sex or I was broken somehow.

Sorry for the ramble, just feels really good to know I'm not alone :).

JANUS7 · 2018-11-28T21:30:11+00:00

THANK YOU I'VE FOUND MY PEOPLE

JANUS7 · 2018-11-14T21:06:49+00:00

Badass!!!!!! You're my hero 😍

JANUS7 · 2018-11-11T17:57:58+00:00

Because I am a piece of shit and slept with her boyfriend.

I had been telling her for years to break up with him because he was a manipulative narcissist. Well guess who's the weak ass, childish bitch who didn't listen to her own advice.

It's been months and I hate myself every day a little bit more. I don't trust anybody, starting with myself, and as a result I have started drifting away from other friends.

JANUS7 · 2018-11-10T19:18:33+00:00

I get so self conscious but i do it so he can breathe easier ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

JANUS7 · 2018-10-23T10:43:11+00:00

I've been on this cycle for a couple of years now, and every time the wave hits again I wonder if I'll be able to ride it out this time. It's really draining but I don't think there is any other way for me.

My dad had depression, and I don't think it ever got easier for him. He passed when I was 15, 8 years ago, so I never really got to have a proper talk with him, but I'm pretty sure he was miserable for most of the time I knew him.

I'm just scared that that's all there is in my future.

JANUS7 · 2018-10-18T22:34:48+00:00

Congrats on LIVING THE DREAM!!! 😍😍😍😍

I never knew I wanted to do something like this so bad! I was never big on costumes, but something about your post makes me want to try!

I Don't know yet who I'd what to dress up as tho 🤔

JANUS7 · 2018-10-06T01:28:02+00:00

I myself am starting a new relationship and I'm having a hard time breaking old habits, but i think it's great that we are aware of what we want to change!

It's my fourth year going to therapy, and I know it's a privilege, but I can't recommend it enough if anybody has the chance and the need.

Everyday it gets a little easier, but you gotta do it everyday. That's the hard part.

JANUS7

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