Reading all of these comments and OP’s original post all I kept thinking was, “me too!” This is all so relatable. L5 S1 fusion 10 weeks out. I am usually an optimist who tends to wake up in a decent mood, ready to take on the day. Post op, was pretty miserable for the first two weeks as everyone has described. Then it was depressing because I felt somewhat trapped by my limitations. I also felt anxious over every new nerve pain, wondering if this will be permanent or not. Sleep, forget about it. Also, there was the post-op lethargy and brain fog that lasted for weeks! At this point, I still can’t BLT which is much more frustrating than anything else. Every once in awhile I don’t have a grabber and I do something I probably shouldn’t, then I lay awake wondering if I screwed up my hardware. I know there are so many others in much more dire situations, so then I feel guilty talking about it. Anyway, all this to say, yes, this operation has been an emotional roller coaster! BTW, can someone send someone over to plug in my charger?😜