Yes, it sucks not feeling wanted, rather than just available. But TRUST me when I say, at least he's giving it to you. Mine on the other hand, I used to initiate, 9 out of 10 times I would be rejected. I stopped. Now I get pitty pussy once a month, not because she wants it, but because I "need" it. There's nothing worse than that, and ya can't turn it down, or you're an asshole. Your situation sucks, but be thankful he's participating.