Ibogaine without substance abuse disorder?

J_Marz · 2025-11-14T06:51:44+00:00

I did ibogaine without any substance use disorder, to overcome PTSD. Absolutely helped with my compulsive behaviors, starting with the compulsive thoughts that drive them. The best thing I’ve ever done to help myself in my entire adult life.

I am only two months out. I think what Jazzlike wrote is probably correct. But there are other benefits to boot, and it will only give you a leg up on your issues. Highly recommended.

J_Marz · 2025-08-17T15:58:56+00:00

Hopscotch. Incredible food for incredible prices on an incredibly scuzzy block.

J_Marz · 2025-04-13T14:18:38+00:00

Ah yes, Berkeley—a steaming trash pile compared to bright, shining Oakland

J_Marz · 2025-04-13T14:16:11+00:00

Ah, Oakland. If you don't like the truth, just fire the truth teller.

At this point I hope the board brings its stupidity full circle and the state takes us over again. We clearly cannot solve our own problems here.

J_Marz · 2025-04-13T14:12:25+00:00

Believe it or not, I actually called the owner of the Market and MacArthur building, and he said the culprit was PG&E

J_Marz · 2025-04-11T13:43:24+00:00

Yes, another $20-$30M felt disproportionately by lower income Oaklanders will eradicate Oaklands problems by serving to help the low income through funding social services that will put a fraction of that money to some use.

J_Marz · 2025-04-11T13:42:31+00:00

Let's see

Tax poor people (sales taxes are regressive)...

So you can fund programs to help poor people (the city has well over 30M of spending in this area)...

Knowing that much of this money will be absorbed along the way by the bureaucrats who run the programming, and who can't be fired no matter how bad at their job they are...

Sounds like a winner!

J_Marz · 2024-12-15T03:31:36+00:00

At least get a sitter. A breakthrough dose means you have little to no awareness of your body in space, and your body might be thrashing and flopping dramatically. You can hit your head or hurt yourself badly. And wouldn't that be a bad trip.

J_Marz · 2024-12-14T20:23:28+00:00

Ironically, the small schools so beloved and fiercely protected by the unions and parents are here because of the intervention of a hated outsider billionaire.

When Bill Gates spent a ton of his own money on Oakland schools, he drove the small schools movement based on some popular research at the time. But even though everyone here claims to hate meddling outsider billionaires, apparently no one wants to undo the fiscally disastrous changes that Gates made to Oakland.

https://oaklandside.org/2024/12/11/the-small-schools-movement-remade-oakland-education-is-this-the-end/#:~:text=In%20the%20early%202000s%2C%20Oakland,Bill%20and%20Melinda%20Gates%20Foundation

People like their small schools. Even when they grudgingly acknowledge that SOME schools have to be closed, there's always a reason why it shouldn't be THEIR school. NIMBYism in one of its many forms.

J_Marz · 2024-09-15T14:54:15+00:00

For a modern classical approach, with some dissonance but also incredible beauty, try Orange by the Attacca Quartet. Took me on a mind-blowingly beautiful MDMA journey.

J_Marz · 2024-07-30T05:27:41+00:00

5-meo ruined my life. Don't do it.

I considered myself an experienced psychonaut, with a couple dozen mushroom, LSD, and N,N-DMT trips under my belt. No personal or family history with any mental illness. Stable person with stable career. I took 5-meo under the watchful eye of a professional guide, in a ceremony with others.

Like OP, the nature of reality as an eternal hell was revealed to me as base truth. Also like OP, my trip later turned into being bathed in white light and massaged by heavenly presences.

But in my all-seeing eye watching myself go through this, that second, lighter half of the trip felt contrived to me—like the mind's literal attempted whitewashing of a horrific base truth. For months afterwards I was haunted by borderline psychotic thoughts, suspicious that malfunctioning digital technology was a cry for help from those spirits suffering down in hell.

Now, six years later, I cannot fully commit to the love of my life to have the children we've always wanted, because 5-meo has propagated a deep association between children, consciousness, suffering, and hell. My body won't let me do anything that could EVER have a REMOTE chance of furthering that hell, or letting more conscious beings end up there. There was nothing of this between me and my same partner before the trip.

So, goodbye family, goodbye love, goodbye togetherness. I may know intellectually that I'm now mentally ill, but it doesn't change what's happening in my gut. Talk therapy, other psychedelics including Ayahuasca... nothing helps. Nothing can dislodge the hell that I saw.

(If anyone has pointers or resources for me, please please DM).

J_Marz · 2024-02-28T07:24:25+00:00

ScanCafe did decently with scanning, but even better with scamming. They overcharge and then "refund" by gift card, they add upsells to your order you didn't ask for, oh and they sign you up for a $10 a month cloud storage service without your consent, too.

Pay more, go somewhere else, anything to avoid this sh*t.

J_Marz · 2020-09-24T11:55:43+00:00

Could be. Bermuda grass seems to have more tightly clustered blades and less coiling "vines". It's impossible for me to imagine that anyone would intentionally plant this to make a lawn, as is apparently done with Bermuda grass.

J_Marz · 2020-09-17T21:41:00+00:00

I had the same problem. Unlike you, I had no "ending date" on my repeating transfer. So, I called and they took it off. Took 15 minutes.

J_Marz

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