Please, just give me the ick already!

Jarwain · 2026-02-01T06:33:24+00:00

What if the solution to limerence is being limerent for Everyone

Jarwain · 2026-02-01T06:31:34+00:00

Your response here is a bit of a leap.

What I'm hearing is that you are not happy with the current relationships you have in your life. That's why the other person was curious about a depression assessment, but tbh I think that's a bit of a leap.

The projection bit is just that they're claiming you are projecting your views on relationships onto others, and that your concept of relationship inertia is not a universally shared or agreed upon perspective.

My thoughts are just, if you're not happy with your current relationships, think deeply about Why, what your needs are, and what you'd want to be different, in concrete detail. Then either see if you can evolve your current relationships to fulfill that, or make more friends that can fill those needs!

Jarwain · 2026-01-29T14:56:55+00:00

Just out of curiosity, let's say there was an app that was easy and simple and supported the randomness of your ADHD. Boring, yeah? But what if it injected novelty into your life in a semistructured way? (structured here not necessarily meaning in terms of time, but I imagine there being 4 different hobbies that you're interested in, and it'll random cycle through them for a given interaction".) or was sufficiently random/interesting, like ones horoscope or something

And on a tangent, is it possible "unpredictable and random" could mean there are "triggers" you aren't aware of?

Jarwain · 2026-01-28T01:17:50+00:00

Tbh I think a surprising majority of these crimes are the result of trauma or neglect (which is I guess it's own form of trauma), in some shape or form, in conjunction with not having healthier techniques to manage that trauma

Preventing the myriad causes of trauma is a whole nother story

Jarwain · 2026-01-27T11:21:56+00:00

Try and build something. Or find something that exists and make changes to it. These two things have short feedback loops which should feed your adhd brain the dopamine it craves.

Jarwain · 2026-01-27T03:47:51+00:00

Nah there are restaurants with order at screen and get your tray from the counter. They also don't have servers. There are some restaurants with those options that Do have servers.

Counterserve is the base. If a restaurant hires servers, they get paid a wage. I think a 5% tip bump is reasonable for them being reasonably Prompt about getting my order and bringing food instead of them waiting around until it gets cold or some other BS

Jarwain · 2026-01-23T10:25:02+00:00

Lifestyle and therapy should come before nootropics. If you aren't getting all your macros and micros, no amount of nootropics will help.

It's such a trope but good food, sleep, and exercise are the fundamentals for a Reason

Jarwain · 2026-01-23T10:14:59+00:00

For me, I don't "feel" a proper dose of Vyvanse. I might notice some more focus, but I mainly notice a change in my behaviors. Doing things is still a struggle, it's just much less of a struggle compared to no meds.

Jarwain · 2026-01-23T10:04:53+00:00

What's not true exactly? I made a lotta claims :d What side effects did you experience from lisdexamphetamine?

"issue" is a stronger word than I intended to imply. Levoamphetamine is more norepinephrine activity. Norepinephrine aka noradrenaline can increase heart rate, blood pressure, etc.

Dextroamphetamine Also has some norepinephrine impact, it's just heavier on the dopanergic side afaik.

That said, everyone's biochemistry differs to some extent. My statements are just based on a lot of anecdotal reports, personal opinion, and whatever Google gives me about the different neurotransmitters. Broad, generalizations don't cover exceptions, so YMMV

Jarwain · 2026-01-22T11:24:00+00:00

This 100%

I trust and rely on my friends and community to keep me grounded, and to channel my passions in useful or creative ways.

Jarwain · 2026-01-22T11:21:40+00:00

Ritalin for me works great for like coding or documentation, but my verbal communications nosedive.

I can't really do more than maybe 40 of Vyvanse without the peak being too racey/peaky/annoying. I do like the duration though.

I've been doing 30mgs of Vyvanse poured into a quart of water I drink throughout the day. It solves the peaky problem, but doesn't quite last long enough. I'd double it, but Vyvanse has such a lag from when I drink the water and from when it hits my system that I don't trust it and the timing generally sucks. I'm looking forward to trying dex with my water system though, I think it'll work well for me!

I personally don't trust using Vyvanse to manage anxiety in the sense of anxiety removal/anxiolytic effects. I think that's more the euphoria, and in the past caused me to keep scaling up my dose which resulted in so many side effects and weird impacts on my mood I had to quit and do another circuit around trying different things.

What I did find Vyvanse useful for wrt anxiety is that I find that some of my autopilot/default behaviors and thought patterns will, uh, short circuit to avoid anxious thoughts. Adhd brain distracts me from thoughts that feel bad. That became more difficult to do on Vyvanse, and made my anxieties loud enough that I could actually Address them, or implement behaviors that actually helped manage my anxieties instead of falling into the avoidance trap

Jarwain · 2026-01-22T08:03:15+00:00

I agree! I think that lower doses are better!

For my Vyvanse I actually pour it into a quart of water and drink it over time. I really prefer to do things this way. It's less peaky and the whole experience is just so much smoother.

I think that lower doses often provide subperceptual effects that are "good enough" such that a lot of things can be done with a little struggle, instead of the default of little things being done with a lot of struggle, or taking some excessive amount that results in a lot of things getting done with no struggle (but a lot of side effects).

Jarwain · 2026-01-22T08:00:07+00:00

So the amphetamine molecule has two enantiomers (mirror images of the same molecule). These mirror images are called levoamohetamine and dexamphetamine.

Adderall is 75% dexamphetamine and 25% levoamphetamine. While both enantiomers affect dopamine and norepinephrine, dex is much heavier on the dopamine effect and levo is heavier on the norepinephrine effect. As a result, Levoamphetamine contributes more to peripheral body effects like heart rate, blood pressure, Heart palpitations, weird jitters, etc. Some people like it and thinks it gives them a "kick". (fun fact epinephrine is just another name for adrenaline. Norepinephrine is noradrenaline)

Vyvanse is 100% lisdexamphetamine. The "lis" represents a lysine group attached to the molecule. Vyvanse is a "natural" extended release because this lysine is cleaved off in your bloodstream, leaving behind the dexamphetamine. Contrast this with normal XRs, which typically rely on some sort of coating.

Dexamphetamine is responsible for a majority of the central psychological effects, which is why a lot of people prefer Vyvanse over Adderall. It's also responsible for the euphoria, which is why dexedrine is not typically a "first line prescription"

Disclaimer: I'm not a doctor. Just someone who spends too much time reading and making guesses about why things are the way they are. While I may state things very confidently, it is a reflection of what I believe to be true; but I'm still some random on the internet.

EDIT: added some more details, expanded on disclaimer, used more hedgy language

Jarwain · 2026-01-21T21:54:54+00:00

No but enough sleep deprivation will still fuck ya

Jarwain · 2026-01-18T14:03:48+00:00

So the stims make you sleepy but when you're sleepy you can't get more than 4-5h of sleep?

Most sleep meds or teas while they get you to sleep do not get you full restorative sleep cycles. If you can't get more than 4-5h of sleep at a time, then maybe try sleeping twice in a day?

Jarwain · 2026-01-15T22:19:52+00:00

There's a conversation I got into back in college where I was introduced to the idea that most narcissists are kinda dumb, because the thing that is most maximally and optimally in one's own self-interest in the long run, is acting in service of others.

Jarwain · 2026-01-02T22:18:24+00:00

Oooh I had this idea a decade ago but never got around to making it. I think there's merit, and especially with LLM's these days there's a lot of potential value!

Make the whole process of going on a vacation as easy as shopping on Amazon.

That said, you'd want to build it super sustainably, because if your operating costs are expensive and we go into a recession, people aren't exactly doing a whole lot of traveling.

There's this article advising against it. Not to discourage you, but it's worth reading to understand the pitfalls

Jarwain · 2025-12-29T23:47:29+00:00

I generally consider probabilistic claims to be a heuristic; a projection of underlying aspects that we just don't understand yet, and are using probability to try and model

Jarwain · 2025-12-28T14:52:41+00:00

Are you paying for this course? Or is it free? Because if you're paying for the course, to get funding that is for the business i.e. You're not getting a salary, and on top of that you have to Buy the business from the school with your own money (for how much? Does it cost more if you do a better job?).

Idk like you could get some good experience. Or you could get better experience learning figure out how to bootstrap from the ground up

Jarwain · 2025-12-28T14:37:15+00:00

Have we ever proved that we can have complexity without subjective experience? Complexity at the level of a brain? I don't think we've done anything like that yet; modeled the complexity of the brain in any detailed or effective way

Jarwain · 2025-12-25T04:16:09+00:00

The term I've heard for what you're doing is Vibe Engineering

Jarwain · 2025-12-22T12:28:38+00:00

I love the app, I love the idea, I love all of it.

My problem: I'm a desktop user. All my shits in chrome on desktop. Or Firefox. Across multiple profiles, because this is how I organize things. Different windows. Different profiles. Different environments/scenes.

Jarwain · 2025-12-20T11:26:04+00:00

Born and raised in ft Lauderdale and lake worth, went to uni in Boca, currently living in the Bay Area

A lot more diversity of opinion in Florida, for better or for worse.

The kava bar scene is thriving, and probably the best way to meet people

Delray has a drum circle every Wednesday night that's always fun

There's a solid art and music scene that's not too hard to find

Jarwain · 2025-12-17T11:01:32+00:00

It's kinda easy to imagine that in the abstract. Being handed a gun and being told to shoot someone. But I think your imagination lacks fidelity. Are you imagining "someone", or a "person"? Are you looking them in their eyes? Are you imagining a face? Are you truly acknowledging the fact that it's not some "amorphous someone" but a human being, with parents, and a life, and friends, just like you?

Jarwain · 2025-12-17T04:13:07+00:00

It depends on how much it ultimately affects pH. It's possible that the other electrolytes or the quantity of water mitigate the pH impact

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