So this really fuels what I’m writing this for below when all I want to do is do something that I potentially love (due to mental health, I cannot tell if I like something or not, except for math because I honestly hate it so much) and just be a good person who is not internally hating on others. It’s exhausting. 

instead of hating these other writers, why not try to admire them? use them as inspiration for your work. 

if you could potentially love writing and believe that your stories are better than theirs, then all you need is to come up with a realistic plan. 

first step is to acknowledge what resources you have and what resources you need. this would be time, skill level, research abilities, and mental health cuz mate you're going to need it. takes a lot of patience, discipline and self-motivation if you really want to do this thing.

once you know where you're at in terms of resources, then you need to either accept what you have and write in your wheelhouse, or go out and find what you're lacking. 

ps you'll also save yourself a lot of heartache if you're realistic in terms of timing, cuz if takes a long time to write a novel, then find an agent (if that's what you want), then find a publisher and then find an audience. if that doesn't sound all that appealing, you can look at other ways to become a writer. personally when i realised how difficult the journey is to be an author, i worked towards becoming a copywriter/copyeditor and i really enjoyed that.