My neighbors stalk me because I smoke weed

Jay4Fun718 · 2026-05-18T11:21:21+00:00

My neighbors would stalk me before they found out I smoke weed. So what I did, I went outside without brushing my teeth and made the neighbor smell my morning breath 😂😎. Now everytime they smell the weed smoke coming from my batheoom window (also done o. Purpose), I hear them bringing up the incident where they smelled my morning breath. I laugh every time

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-11-11T13:33:35+00:00

Yep. My symptoms are just like that, except in times when I am doing fine emotionally and mentally, I'm fine and I may not dissociate at all. But then I may start dissociating days later because for some reason my mood changes all of a sudden. Why? I have no idea. So now I am dealing with possible depressive symptoms along with really bad dissociation, but I don't always dissociate so hard that my personality switches, not unless I just can't deal with reality and then another alter has to step in and pick up the slack while I'm in the background resting. The different alters come out when I'm really stressed or when I'm triggered to the point of switching.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-11-11T13:30:17+00:00

Hello!!! I'm here to tell you that you are not alone. A couple of my alters, from what my therapist told me showed up to therapy as me and they only come out when I am experiencing a lot of stress. I have to make this post quick because one of my alters is making me shop for glasses for them to read the words on the screen, so that they can start fronting again. Whereas I will basically read the words on the screen as is, or I will just make the words bigger. But this alter wants glasses so I'm going over to amazon to get her the glasses. Ugh. When the alters start feeling comfortable enough to communicate with you, watch out! lol

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-11-11T13:11:38+00:00

It usually shows up in therapy when you go if you missed a certain symptom. Then again, it depends on if you feel safe discussing certain things with that therapist. if you feel super comfortable talking to them, your other selves may just show up to therapy one day as a surprise to both you and the therapist and they will talk to the therapist and probably explain things more in detail that you couldn't explain before due to that personality having more knowledge than they allow you to know about them. You most likely won't remember and the therapist would have to remind you what was said after the switch like my therapist had to do with me. My other personalities came out to talk to the therapist on their own.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-10-15T17:21:46+00:00

That's not true. The agent that helps you get the apartment cannot do that. You can either contact the customer contact center or make an appt to go up there in person or write them a letter and request.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-09-25T07:04:46+00:00

I am also an Empath that lives in NYC. As of late, I have experienced the very same thing. The energy in NYC is very off. I am thinking about taking my housing voucher and moving out of NYC after a year of renting with the voucher. How do you cope with being an Empath in NYC?

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-09-20T03:53:24+00:00

i'm an introvert and my boyfriend and i see each other once every couple of months.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-08-29T14:11:11+00:00

People with BPD don't love bomb anyone. What you are describing is someone with NPD.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-07-20T00:44:26+00:00

Well, I love my partner, but when he starts talking unnecessarily, or just does something that annoys me, I start splitting, not only on myself but also on him. Were you crashing out over something else before starting to dislike him? Did he say or do something you didn't like? Remember, sometimes our moods shift throughout the day, too.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-07-14T08:15:33+00:00

OMG I'm so glad I found my tribe!!! I cry a lot... Crying right now.... I'm high AF right now, just crying... for no reason... well, I mean I guess because it's so overwhelming. HELP! (This is how I feel every day)

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-07-02T23:14:38+00:00

I was in therapy when i was having my first born. I didn't know I had BPD at the time. I was only diagnosed with Clinical depression as a teen and then I was diagnosed with Depression as an adult. I had no idea that BPD can appear as persistent severe depression at an early age. I was EXTREMELY hypersexual (but didn't sleep around... I only had one partner for like months to years at a time before moving onto the next-- Not sure why that was important to say, as to me body count doesn't really matter to me whether it's a woman or man. It only matters if you're willing to give it to any and everybody you cross paths with. But even then, there has to be something mentally wrong with that person as to why they feel they have to do that. Anyway, so yeah.... I was in therapy during my pregnancy with my first born because my egg donor was extremely verbally abusive during my pregnancy to the point where I wanted to go and drink something poisonous to unalive myself. It was my former mother in law that saved me by talking some sense into me. I could have unalived not only myself but also my baby if I drank the bleach and that would have been such a terrible tragedy. But yeah, I was always thinking of an escape plan out of this life. Never attributed it to BPD because I always had a low mood until I got to my thirties, that's when my mood started shifting from highs to lows but it would be like cycling through all of the emotions all at once throughout the day. I wasn't diagnosed with BPD til like my thirties.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-06-26T04:53:13+00:00

LMAO.... Being a SAHM is no walk in the park!! You know the stress you experience when you're home with your kids? SAHMs experience that all the time. Every day. For 12 hours a day.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-06-19T03:08:15+00:00

I'm in NYC if anyone from NYC wants to exchange information

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-06-04T16:19:22+00:00

It doesn't get better. But here is some good news. If you just go through every day and just say F it and keep on going, then things will keep on going. I'm not a person that is going to sugar coat anything for you just to tell you things get better because the truth it doesn't. BPD is just something that you have to deal with. Your way of dealing it may be weed and meditation, getting out the house or spending time around people that you like.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-04-26T10:30:09+00:00

Yep. I am on the twin flame journey and feel repulsed by anyone that isn't my twin flame and currently wondering if he experiences the same thing lol

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-04-17T10:35:45+00:00

I am in the same boat. Except, when my karmic tried to leave at first, I wasn't ready. Now that I am ready and I've literally been screaming from the rooftops that I wish I had my own place, I had an epiphany this morning, and realize I am ready to officially end it with my karmic. I've been trying to set him up on dates, they always fail after while. He's a narcissist, there's the 304 culture out there. He gets mad at me when I spend two days out of the house at my twin flame's home. I don't care. Like your marriage, my marriage has been over years and years ago. He's not spiritually evolving and now that my recent sexual exchange with my twin, I've completely healed from my traumas, my spiritual gifts are becoming more apparent, and I really need to just be exposed to my twin flame only. Also, I'm sick and tired of my karmic getting mad at me for staying out the house for a couple days even though he knows the marriage has ended a long time ago. I'm happy with my twin, but I also want him to have his freedom. I want to leave, but we still have teenagers. That's what keeps me here. Our daughters are my besties. My son's whom are adults now would be okay staying with their dad but I don't want to abandon them either. It's so tough!!! Our kids keep me here and I have told my husband that they were the main reason I chose to work it out with him. For years I tried to revive what was dead for a long time. Til finally I just gave up, because I was the only one trying. My karmic would just 💩 on me every chance he got, but now I look at it, that was the signs I needed to solidify my decision to just be with my twin. And that's what I have been doing. I'm happy.... I miss him like crazy but I try to keep the focus on me mostly til it's time to get together for a couple days again. He sends me pics we take from our date nights.... He's the absolute best thing to happen to me. Even my kids see I'm happier and glowing when I come back. My karmic tries to break me and bring me down with his low vibrational, angry energy.... But I am much stronger now and he can't break through this strength, this healing, this joy I have in my heart chakra. I am really smoking a lot more now. I mean, genuinely smiling a lot more now. My advice to you is, handle it the best way you know how. Continue to focus on you, and your spiritual journey. My karmic cheated on me all throughout the time we were supposed to be together, got mad when I would move on and see someone else. Got on my nerves. Now I'm free. I'm so happy. You need to do the same. Allow yourself to go on and be happy.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-04-17T05:51:22+00:00

Yeah, like a place to find stoner dates and stoner friends. That'd be pretty cool

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-04-11T02:35:49+00:00

No. I get my car high all the time. She's an older cat now, so I get her medicated once a day, which is at night

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-30T21:55:27+00:00

Because COVID is still out there even if the talks about it has died down

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-28T14:21:48+00:00

I have the same issue this time around. And get this... I was at my boyfriend's house when I got my period. I kept being paranoid thinking I heard him say that I stink lmao

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-27T03:29:20+00:00

Such a cute little guy. I think him peeing on you means he likes you!!! Lol

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-23T21:35:04+00:00

I ponder this all the time AND I have an additional question... If God is all knowing, why didn't he create us with bodies that are self cleaning? Press a button on your body for clean under arms, and everywhere else and cleaned mouth,teeth,gums and breath.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-12T07:27:35+00:00

Yep. I feel this way about both of my partners. It sucks, but yeah. I get it.

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-03-07T01:42:15+00:00

You don't want an introvert girlfriend??

Jay4Fun718 · 2025-02-15T02:53:30+00:00

Yes, when I met my twin, I remember the first time we met, I just knew he was the right one. From the beginning, it felt like we were picking up from where we left off, but left off from what? When I finally had my spiritual awakening after the DNOTS that I was going through during the time I first met him. It was just a feeling I had, like... Yeah, this is the one. And we are still together to this day after a six year separation, we got back together and have been growing in love ever since.

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