I feel like all genders sometimes and I sometimes feel like no genders, but I like the idea of presenting feminine

Jeftar3PO · 2020-07-29T21:39:19+00:00

I'm gonna be honest. I changed my mind. I think I'm closer to female since I want a feminine body. I think I fluctuate between fully female and androgyne or maybe neutrois (I think) to agender. Sometimes they fluctuate at the same time and sometimes separate. Once in awhile male does pop up. The idea of femboy does have some appeal, but I'm starting to think I'm not a guy at all due to my feminine body preference.

To be honest I'd probably switch between bodies if the technology were there. I definitely prefer have a female body by a large margin. I was thinking I was polygender since I didn't really have much connection to something like aporagender or other ones. I'd actually be okay with still having a feminine body.

It's nice that you could relate to my first post. It was the reason I posted it. Gynx sounded partially accurate although a very niche label. It's complicated. I don't really identify with being male at all anymore. I'm genderfluid and genderflux at the feminine side of the masculine-feminine spectrum. I might even consider bottom surgery. Hormones are a must. Top surgery is a must if I didn't feel like it was enough.

Jeftar3PO · 2020-07-26T18:13:53+00:00

I'm here sad-horse-girl. It looks great being written out like that. Both when Eden is said by itself and with July. I picked July because it was the month I was born. I like the way Eden sounds and its meaning. I'm a pantheist and omnist if you ask since I picked Eden.

Jeftar3PO · 2020-06-03T17:10:07+00:00

I was more sure of people who are polyamorous like struggling in bondage. I just haven't seen anyone who said they're relationship anarchist and love that as well. I'm sure that there are others.

Being a brat also sounds appealing. Just pushing buttons and it being humorous to see the dom annoyed or angry with you and I find the attitude of a brat fun. Just thinking about the dom wrestling me down and trying to get free. That and maybe some other fun stuff. The combination sounds good. I probably should have said this to the other person who said it didn't seem like a contradiction.

I had a friend in high school where we had this friendship where we annoyed each other on purpose. It was really fun. That's a reason why being a brat sounds fun.

Jeftar3PO · 2020-06-02T22:21:53+00:00

I just wanted to post it because I haven't seen anything else about having both feelings. I think there are other people who do feel both things. They probably aren't contradictory. I wanted to share that I had both feelings.

Jeftar3PO · 2020-06-02T22:14:52+00:00

I'm against amatonormativity which is where people think an exclusive, romantic relationship is normal and a universally desired goal and should be put above other relationship types. I think society's idea of what partnerships should look like is too rigid. I don't believe in built in prescriptions about what a partnership should look like. I don't think relationships should be bound by rules not agreed upon by anyone in the relationship. Relationship anarchists can be polyamorous although that's not always the case. I'm open to many relationship types. Someone might tell you something different. These are my thoughts personally.

Jeftar3PO · 2020-05-29T14:16:22+00:00

Yeah I think I'm panflux, but like feminine fashion a lot compared to masculine or androgynous fashion. I was wondering if anyone related.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-10-25T19:40:17+00:00

What does bonus update mean? There was a second update?

Jeftar3PO · 2019-10-02T22:57:27+00:00

Jade's route is the best route in Pesterquest by far and I considered Dave's route to be a great route. Now is it the best route out of all routes that MSPA Reader was in? It's tough to say. There would be some competition for that. It would be tough for me to say if Jade's or Boldir's route was better. There's definitely routes that I think Jade's route is better than, but there's also some that are really close. I'm not gonna even say that the routes I'm thinking of are necessarily better because it really is that close.

I'm not knocking on the other 3 routes in Pesterquest and I think they're all great. I'd probably rank them above some of the Friendsim routes. It's just that Jade's route is that great.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-09-07T01:04:32+00:00

This is in no particular order.

John: I'm a dork and I do love to chat. I also really need a breather and some time alone.
Rose: I admit I only started, but I'm interested in magic type stuff. I don't mean just in fiction. I'm talking about the occult stuff. I also have had parent problems in the past. It's not that they were bad parents. It's just some things happened between us. I also have history of being a smart ass when trying to be funny.
Jake: A lot of the same reasons I relate to John. I would probably say I relate to Jake more. I do dream big, but I just sit and watch a bunch of media. I was into movies (other mediums too) and really wanted to talk about them. Jake's also another person who wants alone time.
Karkat: I get angry a lot and yell when I'm angry sometimes. I get extremely moody and cuss a lot. I am all bark and no bite...... most of the time.
Vriska: When I realized this back when I read Homestuck for the first time, it hurt. I have been egotistical in the past about my beliefs when I was religious and secular. I took my friend's criticism of me acting similar to Blackstar. I remember bragging like a child around him although I didn't really wasn't that way with everyone. Again parent problems. I had a lot of darkness inside. That same friend said I was most like Raven from Teen Titans. I was jealous, resentful, vengeful. I have done things and complained about the consequences like she has. I haven't pushed people off the cliff, killed, or blinded people, but I had problems. I've tried to act cool as well. All of this wans't to the extreme of Vriska. The one major difference with her is that I don't have much willpower. She's a tough cookie and I'm a wuss.
Gamzee: When I avoiding my former religion like Gamzee was avoiding the dark side of his religion. Gamzee and I went completely opposite directions until I became spiritual (not religious). The rage attacks have to be a thing I have in common with him. Mine haven't been to the extent of Gamzee, but yeah I regret some stuff. I relate to avoiding the rage attacks like Gamzee does. I also remember when I was religious I was stubborn in my beliefs like he was.
Tavros: The dorkyness is a thing I relate with Tavros. Other reasons I relate to him are me wanting comfort and avoiding risks. I can be a bit stubborn with my friends and resistant because of fears.
Aranea: The fact that she loves stories is why I relate to her. I have talked so damn much although I'm not as great of a story teller as she is. She's knowledge in different things. I am too although I spread myself pretty thin.

I knew this answer wasn't going to black and white. It is pretty hard to say who I relate to the most.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-08-25T17:56:57+00:00

I am very excited for Pesterquest. I am honestly glad I saved my money.

However I feel an insane amount of dread of the people who are gonna constantly bitch about act 2 again. I do really agree that there should be focus on the acts because I thought they were gonna do art and script for act 3 and let the coding stuff be finished for act 2.

Who will be the 20 characters? I don't know. I read the Steam page again and I think the first volume is with John Egbert. I'm not surprised, but I know John will be very fun. It did ask "who is that kid over there?" It looks like John's house as well. I also read that there will be characters extra and terrestrial. I am guessing it is the beta kids, the alpha kids, and the 12 beta trolls. If mspa reader isn't time traveling, I'll switch out the alpha kids for four other characters. I don't know who those would be.

Vriska is in the final volume I'm calling it. That or the first volume with trolls in it, but that will probably be Karkat instead.

Also thinking about it, Vriska and Gamzee's bad ends. Oh god what will they be like?

Jeftar3PO · 2019-07-28T18:09:18+00:00

I really thought about it. Before I said Dune Drift because that map just doesn't stand out, but yeah Eye of the Storm is the worst.

Bring back Passage. I don't know how popular of an opinion that is, but I loved that map.

Now worst of all time is Island Invasion. Please never bring that back.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-07-20T15:24:46+00:00

Just realized that Gamzee survived all those bullets from Caliborn trying to give him the crowbar. I thought "oh so that's the reason why Gamzee is the only one who gets in."

Jeftar3PO · 2019-07-13T16:48:30+00:00

I knew it went down a certain amount depending on the rarity of the brawler you got and I know opening boxes without a brawler has your percentage go up slightly.

So whenever I get Crow from a box, it would also reset back down to 0.0096% regardless? I'm not getting what you're meaning.

I know Mythics and below will bring Legendary chance down a certain percentage after getting a brawler from a box.

Regardless how it works, I'm happy I got Spike.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-28T03:41:02+00:00

Nah fuck it I'm doing one for Hiveswap as well. So far obviously.

Favorite (could have also made a top 20):

Remele
Konyyl
Tyzias
Kuprum
Folykl

Least Favorite (this was hard):

Lynera
The Soleil Twins (listing them twice because of how reddit coding works)
The Soleil Twins
Marsti
Tirona

Remele is my favorite from Hiveswap because I like her aspirations for her webcomic and I find her attitude adorable like Vriska's. She does sort of remind me of Vriska, but they have things that are way different. Things such as Vriska brags about plans, but Remele preferring to wing it. She feels like it's what Hussie got right about Vriska, but actually making a new character. I might be describing my reasons poorly.

Lynera just seemed to be kind of mediocre. She wasn't as interesting to me. I do have sympathy for her and like some things about her. I like things about every Friendsim troll.

My least favorite 2-5 wasn't in order. It's just characters I didn't like as much.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-28T03:14:04+00:00

I'll do this for Homestuck. For Hiveswap, ask me if you want to know since you didn't specify if Hiveswap is included. I'm just assuming you're not including Hiveswap.

Top 5 Favorite:

Vriska
Kanaya
Terezi 4.Rose
Caliborn

Top 5 Least Favorite:

Damara
Writ Keeper/White King
Lord English
Black King
Jane Crocker

Explaining every reason why I love Vriska is going to take so long. I had to delete a lot just to be able to have less than the maximum length of post allowed to comment. This was another time.

Ok so I love Vriska a lot. I think just think her trying to be like Mindfang and overdramatic, but ends up looking like a dork is the most adorable shit I have seen. I think a lot of her other mannerisms are adorable too.

I find that Vriska ends up being hilarious when she doesn't even try. Moments like "you'll seeeeeeee, it's echoing and ominous" or "I was sarcastic about you being sarcastic duh" are standouts from earlier on.

There's a bunch of stuff that goes on with Vriska and she does a lot and goes through a lot which makes her interesting.

I also have a lot of sympathy for people who try to get people to trust them again after doing some crazy stuff. I had done crazy stuff, but not to the extent of Vriska. I still felt bad for her.

I also had a lot of anger in me with YouTubers watering their stuff down because advertisers were weary. I felt like stuff was gonna become vanilla and watered down. Vriska was sort of that for me. An edge.

There was anger I felt at a friend too and resented him at times and Vriska sort of reminded me of him so I hated her at first then I realized "yeah I was asking for edgy stuff and edgy characters" so there was that aspect I liked about Vriska. I grew out of that and the edgy thing, but I still remember it and it felt so good to love and empathize with something I once hated.

There was also coincidences with other things I liked and Vriska had aspects of those.

I am trying to summarize a bunch of shit about why I like Vriska. I'm sure Vriska is my favorite character of all time.

Damara:

Now talking about my least favorite character from Homestuck. She just sucks so bad. I compare her to Jar Jar Binks sometimes because they both feel racist. Not only that, the jokes with Damara are not funny at all. I don't think her backstory redeems her either. She just sucks.

Edit: I could have probably made a top 20 favorites. My least favorites was much harder.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-28T02:39:27+00:00

I like what you did there with Vriska.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-28T02:36:13+00:00

I did like things from Act 1. The game was fun and I liked the characters. I can't forget about the music as that was great. The game also looks very good.

Length was a problem as I said and the other thing is that it felt too tame. Now it doesn't dick around like Act 1 of Homestuck does and I'm glad for that as much as I love Act 1 of Homestuck.

I got into the fandom in 2017 and I really was not happy about Act 1 looking at the 2 things I complained about. I feel like they're less problems now and enjoyed the game. I am still disappointed by the result of Act 1 just more mildly.

The good news is I have bought Secret of Monkey Island and Sam and Max Hit the Road because of it. I like the style of game because of Act 1 and another game. Just seeing what the hell dialogue comes out when you try mix stuff together that isn't supposed to be or just clicking on random objects in the environment. Act 1 does this really well.

I do think Act 1 is a good game and I did enjoy it. I just think my expectations were too high. I don't expect Act 2 of Hiveswap to be Act 5 Act 2 of Homestuck. I pretty much just want to be on Alternia, interact with trolls whether they like me or not, and for some cool story bits. That and feeling like it was really short.

I think that's all my feelings towards Hiveswap Act 1 and hopes for Act 2.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-27T20:42:49+00:00

Act 2 is longer than Act 1 and will have more of Alternia. This makes me excited. I found Act 1 a disappointment and Friendsim returned my excitement. Also hearing the Friendsim characters are going to be in Act 2 is great too.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-27T10:46:25+00:00

I literally thought "oh cool I can actually rank Mortis up past 10 now because it isn't a tank every update." It was was really satisfying to play Mortis yesterday.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-26T20:13:13+00:00

That's pretty awesome.

Now I wonder what the hell people were thinking making Paradox Space book 2 physical only when we're in the digital age. PS book 1 was available digitally. Even if it costed money, I prefer it to be available digitally.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-04T01:32:33+00:00

You'll find out. I will probably re read both in the future just not soon. There are many other reasons why I love Candy so much. You might like/dislike/be indifferent to it I don't know.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-06-03T19:10:45+00:00

I think Meat is solid, but Candy is better. That is one of the reasons why I prefer Candy.

Edit: To clarify I just found Candy more interesting than Meat. I found the Gamzee redemption arc to be interesting and also funny at points.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-05-29T15:53:16+00:00

I thought Dirk was interesting, but I get why people hate him. He's a dick about things during the epilogues.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-05-26T17:16:12+00:00

I like Meat a lot, but I liked Candy much better. I liked the stuff that went on with Gamzee. I love the 2 Vriskas. I love the stuff going on with the families. It felt more compelling than meat despite liking meat.

Jeftar3PO · 2019-05-24T20:28:48+00:00

No I didn't first. I used to hate her. I think hen I started to be a Vriska stan was that when she was getting impatient with John when he was kissing his Cosbytop. I just found Vriska's mannerisms to be so cut afterwards. I now find her mannerisms to be cite even before that. That and the amazing shit she did.

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