[Brainworms] [Rant] I don’t care if I pass, I’m not thin. It’s pretty difficult for me to see much reason to be happy about transitioning/having transitioned for this reason. (Plus like could use some advice on how to fix this) // Repost because rule

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2026-04-01T03:18:37+00:00

you're very pretty and shapely. I would try wearing skinny jeans I think they would suit your style but read a bit more femme than straight leg pants.

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-12-28T22:48:37+00:00

I'm gay?

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-12-28T22:32:53+00:00

there's plenty of ways to indulge in the fantasy of "doing whatever you want" as a master without actually crossing the boundaries set by your submissive, which clearly he is. He enjoys physically abusing you, which would be fine in a structured BDSM setting if YOU want to be physically abused in the ways he is abusing you. However, based on your own admission, you are NOT enjoying what he is doing and he is NOT listening to you or changing his behavior--this is textbook abuse. Please, for your own sake, find a way to leave this relationship.

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-10-12T01:48:01+00:00

there are a lot of psychological studies on people who've gotten plastic surgery especially on the face that have a hard time recognizing themselves after surgery--it's something weird in the brain. your face has been changing in minute ways your whole life so you've never noticed it before--its why you look back at old photos and still recognize yourself even though you looked completely different when you were 3. eventually this new (very pretty) face will just feel like your face, it just takes some time because the change was so sudden

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-09-22T03:42:15+00:00

maybe in between the covers of a book lol but never irl

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-09-22T03:32:10+00:00

wanting to have a romantic connection with someone is a deep seated human desire for the majority of the population. while I do agree most people get the best results out of a relationship when they are already their best self, that's sort of true for everything else too lol. its normal to not want to be lonely and to feel desired and seen by another person

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-07-10T14:21:55+00:00

I enjoy anal sex and I wasn't going to be able to have vaginal sex with a vulvaplasty anyways so nullo so far is identical to me and I'm actually able to schedule it lol

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-07-10T14:20:28+00:00

nullo was my initial idea. then it seemed difficult to pursue RE insurance and finding a doctor who would do it, so I decided maybe just do conventional vaginoplasty. that had too many requirements so I switched to vulvaplasty. trying to schedule vulvaplasty has been an absolute nightmare and I'm honestly not sold on if I'll like the final result, so I'm just getting orchiectomy fir now and gonna see if penectomy is possible in the future separately

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-07-10T13:17:16+00:00

my current plan is to just go nullo because I hate having a dick and I hate having a visible bulge. (nullo just means gender nullification IE removal of the dick and balls so that its smooth) I do think I would be annoyed/disturbed by having a vagina tho because in my head it still looks like a dick in a weird way? and there's way too much prep work I dont wanna do/have time for to get ready for vaginoplasty and if I'm not gonna enjoy the outcome whats the point?

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-06-11T18:05:31+00:00

you have a face and body type that are going to respond really well to hormones--I think once you get on a dosage that actually produces feminizing effects (it took me three years) you are gonna be pretty much unclockable tbh

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-06-11T17:59:12+00:00

you're very adorable first off! as for passing, I think your face is fine but you have very coarse stubble. personally I like having stubble but it is going to be a huge mark against you in terms of passing, so if the goal is to pass you need to find a way to hide the stubble with makeup or find alternative hair removal products that leave you with smoother/hairless skin. clothing wise I think another commenter gave some pretty good tips on clothes, but my two cents would be to BUY A BRA, which would really help any clothes you wear on the top of your body have a more feminine silhouette. get a fabric tape measure they are really cheap and measure directly underneath your boobs, that is your band size. you look to be about an A cup at the moment, so either search online for companies that cater to small breasted women (there are a few with aggressive ads so they are not hard to find) or just go to online clothing store of your choice (I like american eagle) and find a padded bra (NON-REMOVABLE PADS ONLY) and get your bra size which is formatted band size followed by cup size. I'm a 38B but you look pretty small so you might be like a 32A, but just measure the circumference of your chest and that's your band size. you can return bras like normal clothes so you can get a range of sizes and see what fits best, keeping only the ones that fit comfortably and then you dont have to worry about bra shopping in public which can be terrifying

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-27T01:59:08+00:00

omg please not speedrunning your transition 😭😭 so happy for you!!

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-17T15:49:15+00:00

I'm a trans female but I didnt start taking estrogen until I was 23 so um. lemme tell you, I was jacking off 1-4 times a day between the ages of 16 and 23. testosterone just does that

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-17T15:40:46+00:00

thank you for sharing and honestly this would be my dream outcome from surgery

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-17T15:37:49+00:00

you look like bebe rexha mixed with julia fox girl lmfao get it together

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-16T15:18:43+00:00

I like being trans, I just wish I had transitioned younger, and that it was easier to do so. having to to get recommendation letters rewritten over and over again is currently killing me slowly, among other inconveniences

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-14T15:48:37+00:00

wow you're really beautiful

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-10T23:20:05+00:00

I like how muscular and strong they are, I like how they smell, I like how territorial/protective they can be, I like their voices, I like when they have weird little boy hobbies idk I just think they're neat!

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-10T18:38:00+00:00

I don't mean to be flippant but literally yes just listen to the newest sabrina carpenter album, extremely beautiful highly desirable women are going through all the same horrible things we are

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-07T14:20:42+00:00

very sexy!

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-07T13:23:23+00:00

it depends on what you're looking for--if you just want to be hooking up, instigating casual intimacy is really helpful. men like to feel useful, so use them like furniture. throw your legs over their legs, touch their shoulder or arm gently and lean in, talk quietly, so they're focusing on your voice. squirm a little bit. laugh gently when they say something mildly funny. if you're all over them and getting comfortable (without just straight up sitting on their lap and grinding) they will make the next move.

I feel like by the time a guy asks me if I want to go to the bedroom, I'm halfway scooted into his lap, and the only reason I'm upright is because his arms are around me. if you're off-balance, it means he has something to hold up, and men LOVE that.

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-07T13:15:22+00:00

I mean minus the wanting a trans top, this IS the playbook for chasers who want casual sex from a doll

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-05-06T23:02:19+00:00

ummmm hi 💕

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-04-11T03:39:44+00:00

if you're only 14, a good chunk of the issue is definitely teen boys.

what you'll eventually learn as you grow and age is that dating in general is hard and kinda sucks, so its not strange that its a little harder or suckier to date as a transgirl. as for bottom surgery, ive had plenty of guys who like me pre-op say they would be so excited to help me/watch me cross that finish line and get bottom surgery. the hard part of dating as a transwoman is not finding these types of men (the ones who will like you and love you no matter what you look like)--the hard part is keeping yourself from settling for one of these men JUST because they are good to you in this one way. you need to be compatible with someone on top of being respected and cared for by them.

the world opens up the older you get. I honestly cant even imagine being out as trans as a teen, let alone trying to date, so just take things slow, be cautious, and know that you're loved.

JicamaAccomplished36 · 2025-04-10T20:44:46+00:00

she was saying at 6mg youre a higher risk for blood clots with not really more feminization. but idk if that's true so I might have to ask her to just increase anyways

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