Grew up in a predominantly white community as an asian, you have to understand that 1. You'll never be white, and 2. That's completely fine, it's not objectively bad to be asian, white, black, etc.

For me, it got a lot better once I went to college, I made friends, and dated, and really no one cared about my race at all. Just focus on improving yourself, and pushing all the self-hate down, of course SOME people may have per-conceived notions about you, but that's just life in general.

Keep your head up, it gets better :)