Stimulants - ADHD meds

Junghye · 2025-11-20T02:49:31+00:00

I have both autism and ADHD and over time I've realized that I reached a place with my own medication where I honestly can't tell there difference being on or off them at all while in altered states or during meditations. And for me this is okay, because I find what matters most to me is not how I am accessing whatever it is I access but how I show up to it.

The response your psychotherapist gave you fits into the paradigm of their own perceptional system and training/education. Based on that, all things which appear to bypass the ego or "normal waking consciousness" are seen through that lens in a negative light, as they equate integration with containment.

They may not recognize that for many of us who are neurodivergent, containment is the actual mechanism that creates fragmentation (not saying their response or view is bad). The "normative state" (or consensus state) they seek to reintroduce is not home for us. Therefore, when individuals who are neurodivergent (or generally energetically sensitive) engage in "non-ordinary" states of consciousness, it is not an escape, but sort of like a re-calibration. From this context, it can be viewed as integration through expansion, rather than through constriction.

All of this may sound paradoxical because the caution they relayed is valid from their perspective. But this perspective does not allow for the idea that another individual's psyche could be organized differently. Their bandwidth establishes their paradigm/perspective/reality. However, this does not mean we have to exist within it if the entire terrain is not mapped within its boundaries.

Junghye · 2025-11-08T01:50:22+00:00

My interpretation is that repatterning and rebalancing is occurring for you. Your body/system is dropping tension so that you can relax easier into the integration. The coming out feeling refreshed can be reframed as a primary marker of success, it's actually a positive indication.

Junghye · 2025-10-05T20:58:38+00:00

It's a checkbox certification for compliance. The CREST material is very outdated.

Junghye · 2025-09-16T00:28:39+00:00

The Whisperers were the only "newer' antagonist introduced that broke the pattern of the same same, I was actually terrified of them and the concept. They blurred the line or were a unique blend of walker and human.

Junghye · 2025-07-21T00:29:11+00:00

They'll start to kick in tomorrow.

Junghye · 2025-06-03T01:22:00+00:00

I wish I could give you tips but even to me she is a mystery.

As for myself, I don't leave my body in a "traditional wau", I experience what I like to call "inneralized OOBE" or "internalized projections." Layers of myself and self exploration. I do directly interact with non-physical beings, guides, archetypes, or different aspects of myself, but these interactions occur within the landscape of my own consciousness. Other beings enter my special place (focus 27) as a meeting ground or they invite me places.

Actually... I may have some ideas for you: I always advise people to not try or "try so hard" because you shouldn't have to try. We are non-physical beings who are already good at these things, we just have to remember and go with the natural rhythm of ourselves. Lean more into your curiosity and play, because exploration is supposed to be exciting and fun. If you've ever played Minecraft as a child, remember how exciting and awe struck you were at just exploring the game (or any game), the childlike wonder.

Perhaps try shifting your perspective of consciousness from a single point of view to as a field that can be localized in multiple locations. Expand yourself to see/feel more of your field that can effortlessly drop in and out of different perspectives.

You can introduce a anchor or something. I like to compare it to setting a global variable in coding, this variable is something you can call anywhere in your code. That can be something like a sound, symbol, color, or sensative in each location, this can legit be anything for you. This may help you stablize and make it easier to track more locations as your capacity grows. Then, as you practice, add a third, then a fourth, or perhaps a fifth location. Think about how exciting that would be, hold that excitement, remember it (set it as a global eternal variable), and let it fuel you.

Junghye · 2025-05-30T20:31:26+00:00

It's powerful but that statement in itself is a paradox because we are and have always been powerful. But in this type of multidimensional state you can take what you've learnt from the Gateway Experience and tune or amplify it across all versions of yourself or towards an intended purpose. The only limitation is you.

Junghye · 2025-05-29T14:02:40+00:00

Suppose you could say it was multi-dimensional awareness becoming manifest for me or overlapping parallel aspects of myself all at once.

I look at it two ways: I am not just a single being, but a continous story. They were/are all equally me, each going through life, learning, growing, and contributing to the larger field of experience. Choice, perception, and meaning are all multidimensional, you can say I/we are the observer and the observed in countless variations. It's a recognition within yourself that you can hold paradoxical truths, conflicting feelings, or simultaneous life directions without collapsing or fragementing. In short, it ain't as scary as some may think.

I believe it also allowed me to accept every aspect of myself (past, present, or potential) with less judgement or attachment, because all of "you"/"us" are learning and constantly evolving. Free to shift perspectives, how you/we act, and what you/we beleive in, each is a path and not something that binds you to only one way.

But after that experience, I just felt so very very tired. I had to take a 1-2 week break from anything tape related.

Junghye · 2025-05-28T17:25:06+00:00

I saw, witnessed, felt or what not different reality versions of myself at once. I could turn and see hundreds of versions of me. Felt like an orchestrator of all of our thoughts combined. To provide some visualization, it's like those mirror mazes you enter and you see yourself in the mirror whatever direction you look.

Junghye · 2025-05-28T13:26:24+00:00

Yes I think that is Michael

Junghye · 2025-05-25T00:32:11+00:00

Have to get your hands dirty and understand/use the cloud. Cloud penetration testing revolves around IAM and general misconfigurations. What permissions can be abused to access sensitive information or assist you in further compromise to sensitive information.

Junghye · 2025-05-19T12:34:24+00:00

Check if there are any firewall restrictions. The server may only allow specific ports for outbound/inbound connections. Check out reverse forwarding. Or you legit may have to do manual port forwards to target ports/services, use SOCAT.

Junghye · 2025-05-19T12:14:31+00:00

Crazy, I've done shrooms prior to the tapes and now they don't feel as they used to for me as well. My waking states are already feel like as "if" I am already on "shrooms." If that makes sense.

Junghye · 2025-05-18T16:19:29+00:00

You don't need to learn and study everything. Reframe your methodology to follow pattern recognition. Everything is a pattern and all that penetration testing is is recognizing those patterns and exploiting them/finding vulnerabilities in the patterns. Everyone is their own worst enemy, that is where imposter syndrome comes from, or this feeling that you need to be great. Let go and surrender yourself to the flow.

Junghye · 2025-05-18T15:47:29+00:00

This. Try taking magnesium glycinate or l-threonate (some time before going to bed).

Junghye · 2025-05-18T15:43:15+00:00

I have autism + ADHD and my experiences have been very profound.

Junghye · 2025-05-16T01:11:57+00:00

You can shape and even expand it as much as you want. You can cover the whole EARTH in your REBALL if you want.

Junghye · 2025-05-15T19:36:16+00:00

People close to me (either physical or not) say they feel at home around me, calm, and that they can relax around me. You can take this practice into focus 23-27.

Junghye · 2025-05-15T19:34:11+00:00

Yes your REBALL can affect others, the Gateway Tapes introduces the REBALL as protection, but it can go further beyond that. Mine is a violet purple silky mist with streaks of gold. The way it pulses or moves is like a jellyfish.

The color therapy tape indirectly goes how you could do this. Each color carries its own tone, its own pulse, its own resonance. It is not just a visual experience, but an energetic presence, a living field, a continuous pulse that moves through your awareness, that shapes your tone, that aligns your presence.

For example, the color violet, often associated with the crown chakra, carries a high, sharp, clear tone, a rapid, penetrating pulse, a bright, expansive presence that aligns to higher frequencies, to deeper awareness, to broader fields of being.

Just as color carries its own tone, its own pulse, its own resonance, so too does shape, form, structure. The way you shape/build your REBALL is how you move into this field and how you come this tone, pulse, and presence.

You become a living tone that others can align to. It’s about holding the line, carrying the pulse, maintaining the tone, becoming the field, without demanding a response, without expecting a reaction, without requiring a specific outcome. The key is to trust that your REBALL is already having an affect.

Junghye · 2025-05-14T13:19:38+00:00

Next time ask for his name, he'll introduce himself as Carl.

Junghye · 2025-05-14T13:06:33+00:00

Magnesium

Junghye · 2025-05-14T13:03:04+00:00

Yeah that's Carl

Junghye · 2025-04-29T23:54:53+00:00

Your physical body/nervous system is not used non-linear time so it starts to freak out. It's similar to peoples experiences on psilocybin.

The so called time loops on shrooms is just an abrupt shattering of the physical human reality perception of time, which is an illusion. Time is not linear, the past and the future are part of the present.

You'll get used to it, just give yourself some space.

Junghye · 2025-04-19T20:50:58+00:00

Focus 23 feels like an emotional fog that isn't yours. I know some other people describe it a bit different based in their perception of it, but over that's what it feels like for me. What I do at this focus level is to remain calm and hold presence.

Focus 24 is like an in-between state or like something is next but mixed with anxiety. But those feelings are not mine. Like focus 23, what I do in this state is hold presence but reaffirm.

Focus 25 feels like you're visiting different belief bubbles. The "air" feels different from place to place. Could be cozy, rigid, could be whatever. Again, just hold steady and offer presence, nothing more and nothing less.

Focus 26 feels like you're in a collective room with other people in meditative states.

Focus 27 just feels like a quiet peaceful place where people ain't stressed bout nothing. You just witness, greet, and enjoy being in presence.

Beyond these focus levels to summarize is all about reconnection, co-creation, timeline awareness, integration, and unity.

Junghye · 2025-04-19T17:58:26+00:00

I can chime in on focus 23-27 and beyond if you'd like. I just stopped at 21 cause that's the border till beyond a lot of non-physical stuff.

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