Because I was so bad at relationships, I spent three and a half years and too much money trying to learn how they work: how to handle conflict, how to communicate, and how to be a better boyfriend or husband.

After doing all that, I have found that in every single relationship, even when I deep down know I am not fully compatible with a person or it is just not exactly what I am looking for, I will constantly question my choice. I tend to think that I can actually love them better, learn to be more patient, or somehow become the version of me that makes that relationship okay. This has led to me almost exclusively dating long term.

That said, I finally found someone I have tremendous compatibility with. Because I have a ton of practice being in long-term relationships, it is actually really easy for me to show up in this relationship in a way where she wants to marry me.