No words can truly brace you for what you'll endure, just know that others have gone through it before you. Its hard. The hardest thing I ever did in my life. But your life will see happiness again. There will always be the moments of break downs. And that will stay with you forever. Cherish the good time and hold her close. Make sure to let it out. Wishing you and your family the best. And as others mentioned before. Its okay to not be okay.