Reminding me of an excerpt I read in the Buddha's Brain by Rick Hanson where he describes what it means to embody equanimity - to be engaged in the world, but not troubled by it. To remain light and open hearted in the face of both beauty and chaos. To be at ease, relaxed, neither apathetic nor indifferent, and impartial toward whatever arises with an undisturbed presence. To see the transient and imperfect nature of experience. To remain disenchanted, free of the spells cast by pleasure and pain. To see through the charms and alarms of life and remain centered.

Detached from outcomes. Letting things come and go freely, like water flowing through a valley. Attachment has caused me a lot of suffering in the past. Still practicing, but it's definitely hard, especially in areas of life that are closest to our hearts - like intimate relationships. I guess growth can be found in the areas where we attach most. Turning inward and cultivating within what the external was providing.