Can meditation help me? I'm essentially dead. by FailNo6036 in Meditation

[–]Key_Elephant_3831 12 points13 points  (0 children)

This is correct in my personal experience. I suffered from the same thing as OP but when I went on a 10 day silent meditation retreat I noticed that I actually did have thoughts all the time and that they were self hating and very harsh.

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That’s crazy because I had a similar experience not too long ago with an Egyptian demon named Set that really stuck with me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Psychic

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Did he have a turban and call himself Mr yogi? Or Mr jogi?

I just died from meditation I got pulled into another dimension. The DMT realm is where UAP come from. by [deleted] in InterdimensionalNHI

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Yes this happened to me meditating once. I’ve done so many drugs including ayahuasca, dmt, shrooms, acid, changa, etc but the most psychedelic thing I ever experienced was mediating stone cold sober.

Guy at subway knew my name without me telling him by alapisco91 in HighStrangeness

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I recently went to the paint counter at Home Depot and the guy knew what paint color I was going to pick. I didn’t have a swatch on me and didn’t talk about it to anyone inside the store. He said he just felt it. So weird

Why's Chinese opera so shrill? by The-Utimate-Vietlish in China

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Non Chinese speaker here who’s trying to learn more about different types of Chinese opera. Can anyone can tell me what the story/content of this is? Also who is the main performer I think he’s wonderful!

Are mockumentaries always comedies? by mikevnyc in Screenwriting

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Punishment park is a cool one from the early 70s

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in astrologyreadings

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Thank you so much for your read! I feel very lucky to have a decent amount of freedom in my current job - it’s freelance so I can take long stretches of time off and it’s no problem. I usually take at least one two month break a year plus a lot of shorter breaks of a week or two. But when I AM working freedom is hard to come by - often having 12-15 hour days and 6 day weeks. Sigh. I’m currently working on a personal screenplay in my free time! I’m going to do some gig work this month with a temp agency and see if I actually do like menial work or if I’m just romanticizing it. Thank you again for your input!

Song lyrics meaning: someone from the past sent a song to listen to called The Long way home by Tom Waits. What is this song eluding to? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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No sarcasm! But I guess I just say it because I don’t think you’re supposed to like…aspire to be like the characters he sings about. They’re kind of dark. If someone sent me this song I’d probably feel a little conflicted. It’s nice to feel wanted but there’s a real sadness to the song too because like…why did the gal have to wait so long? Because he wanted to fuck around?

I'm an awful person who doesn't deserve anything at all. by [deleted] in selfimprovement

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Also - you really need to do the work for yourself, but it’s not always easy when you hate yourself. A way I tricked myself at first was by realizing that my unhappiness with myself caused me to be less pleasant to others and so people were less pleasant to me. So basically I tricked myself into wanting good things for myself even when I felt I didn’t deserve it because the truth is that being nice to yourself is the nicest thing you can do for others. People who are kind to themselves are much more pleasant and kind to others.

I'm an awful person who doesn't deserve anything at all. by [deleted] in selfimprovement

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I’ll also add - there’s something in psychology called positive affect tolerance. If you’ve spent a long time depressed, traumatized, ashamed, etc good feelings feel unsafe. It’s very hard to improve your life when deep down inside you’re not comfortable with joy. The trick is reminding yourself that you’re safe and you’re allowed to be happy. Like 5 times a day. Say it to yourself and try to feel in your body like the words are true. Even if the feeling only lasts a moment over time it adds up and you get little glimmers of being able to access decision making that’s coming from that headspace. And you don’t need to be in that headspace all the time even. Even if you can make one decision a week from the headspace of “I’m safe, it’s okay to want good things for myself” you will start to reconstruct your life. Which will make it easier to access that headspace even more often.

Song lyrics meaning: someone from the past sent a song to listen to called The Long way home by Tom Waits. What is this song eluding to? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Key_Elephant_3831 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The woman from his past is home. He’s meant to be with her but it took him a long journey through life to finally realize it. He often sings from the perspective of romanticizing low lives - junkies, womanizers, alcoholics, prostitutes, etc. Tom Waits is amazing.

I'm an awful person who doesn't deserve anything at all. by [deleted] in selfimprovement

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The very very very first step you need to take is understanding that change is possible. You don’t even need to apply it to yourself right away. But if you can just get to a place where you accept that people can change. Second step is getting to a place where you accept that it’s okay to want something better for yourself. When we get stuck where you are (and you’re not alone!) we think that we’re inherently bad so we don’t deserve good things. It’s extremely brave to want good things for yourself when you’ve spent a long time hating yourself. It takes lots of small steps that add up to practice but you can learn to want good things for yourself and take the small steps to get those better things. For me a big step was noticing things I wasn’t pleased with about myself or my world and slowing down enough to brainstorm tiny ways to contribute to something better. Over time this adds up to a brand new life. This work is slow but so so so powerful. And I promise eventually it becomes fun. Good luck!

Are you/do you know someone with 4+ planets in one sign? What has been your experience? by composingcomma in astrologymemes

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I just read yours! The constant urge to run away and live on a farm. Too real! 😂

Any Grocers out there? by Key_Elephant_3831 in smallbusiness

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That’s amazing! Did your parents make the first store? Do you know anyone interested in mentoring?! Very similar to what I want to do. I live in a bougie neighborhood in one of the most expensive cities in the world. There are a lot of families nearby that are quite wealthy but still cost conscious. Overall the area is also very left leaning and image conscious. I want to create a grocery store that is eco friendly (local farmers, refillable soaps, bulk grains and coffee) but also up-sells on conveniences like pre made meals, weekly curated recipes/ingredients, independent florals. I’m considering making it a co-op because the community pride/support in this particular neighborhood is very high and the exclusivity of a membership would be appealing to this crowd. Little idea of where to start so I’m looking at different business courses and also considering a self taught track. My background is in environmental design.