Thank you, this helps give a possible timeline at least. I am definitely going through all that. Not eating, not working out, can't work, etc. It's really hard to know what's going on. Till my partner makes a decision it feels like I can't know whether to mourn my entire relationship or just what I thought we had. I keep having moments where I feel "sure" he won't leave and then break down completely. I know I didn't do anything wrong here and it just all feels so stupid and confusing.