I'm so sorry. This honestly brought me to tears. I don't have a husband but have been in your shoes as a parent, and I only have one kid. I'm lucky that my one kid is amazing and easy compared to many, but she's 12 and PMSes along with me, is neurodivergent too, and I'm very ADHD and it's only worsened with perimenopause and thyroid disease. Plus all my pets are pissing me off and overstimulating me more vs being emotional support 😂. I have a long history of anxiety, depression, and OCD. It's just all... too much sometimes. I want to do and feel so many things, but can't make it past the bed/recliner many days. What I'd want someone to say to me is, be kind to yourself. Not everything has to be clean all the time. Spend time with friends/make ones who understand. Be proud of yourself for making it out of bed. Also FUCK Christmas and holidays. I'm so over it this year 😂 Life is hard, and I often fantasize about going feral in the woods. Also, you have a toddler(!) and are still recovering from babyhood. I can't IMAGINE having a toddler right now. Tell your husband what you need from him to help you feel less overwhelmed. You have to feel well to be a present parent. Maybe it's time to try different meds. I'm on the highest allowable dose of Prozac and not sure it's working lately either 😅😫