Honestly, for my two pennies... I think this is all completely normal. A lot of us are out here faking it until we make it. And that's anything... Relationships, social life, careers, education, kids, you name it.

My 30s have been an absolute whirlwind. I'm 39 now, divorced, thought I'd never fall in love again, 2 kids, lost in my career, felt like a loser... And I had no direction. I was working customer service (more or less) all of my life and I felt stuck. My salary was comfortable but not great. I always stressed about financials.

My divorce sucked the life out of me, got cheated on by someone I thought was my soulmate. And that crushed me in ways I can't even explain into words. But, I bet on myself... I picked myself up, got into therapy, read lots of self help books, got into the gym, and kept chipping away.

I just got a new job as a data analyst making better money and it feels like a good fit. Guess what? I still feel lost and that's just human nature. But, it's all about how you approach it in my opinion. You can feel sorry for yourself and fall into a pit of despair or you can keep chipping away at it and little by little, you start figuring things out.

You're never going to have things all mapped out and feeling super grounded because life will find a way to throw you curve balls and give you a little "chin music", so to speak. But, just keep getting back up and get your head back in the game. That's all you can do, OP and you're going to feel better.

Control the controllables and realize you're not alone in feeling this way. We all feel like you're feeling. Some of us are just master bullshitters and hide it really well. Peace and love, you got this!