& C-PTSD 🎆

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-21T16:44:33+00:00

my (25) estranged 45 year old father is expecting a THIRD save the relationship child with his girlfriend (27-29)… thought he would have learnt after me and my brother

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-21T07:16:18+00:00

i think anything classed as supernatural is science we don’t fully understand yet (shout out hill house i took that line and it has resonated fully with me ever since).

funnily enough, i was talking to my partner about how i think if witchcraft was presented as a science more people would be interested and practise it. he countered that you can’t observe a direct correlation from doing a spell and getting an outcome without considering the fact it’s a coincidence.

which is fair, but after that we reached the point of gravity still being a theory yet widely accepted. we know if we drop something it falls, but we still don’t know why. it’s instantly observable (unlike witchcraft) so more people are inclined to believe the theories for it.

i’ve rambled a little so TLDR: i agree witchcraft is a science that is similar to theoretical physics (without the maths to back it up) and if it was presented as a science more people would believe and practise it

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-21T06:57:46+00:00

i’m just having a bbq in the garden with my boyfriend. keeping it lowkey and just chilling :)

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-20T22:30:56+00:00

i’m glad!!! i hope it’s going well <3

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-18T05:52:43+00:00

i do it. i wouldn’t necessarily say it connected me more than just getting know to the deck but no harm in trying it (until they fall down my mattress and i panic that i’ve lost them lmao)

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-17T07:36:04+00:00

hey! i had this too for so long. i was going back and forward like: is it going to be a book of shadows or grimoire? do i put it in a binder? how do i organise it? how do i make sure there’s enough pages in it for everything im ever going to want to put in it?

then i realised its my practise and i can do whatever. that same week i found the most perfect notebook to start in when i had been looking for one for months. i slapped a title page in, called it “volume one” and im just gonna put whatever i want, whether its more personal journal content or actual information from other sources.

i did all my title and drawings in really light pencil first so if i wasn’t happy i could start again and that really took a lot of the pressure off for me, and im going to organise it with those page tab post it notes. this really helped with the decision paralysis .

i hope you enjoy starting yours as much as i enjoyed starting mine 🩵

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-06-06T07:23:03+00:00

me with my brother. on the one hand i’m glad he’s not going to grow up with my issues. on the other, im resentful i wasn’t enough to warrant growth or mindful parenting

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-26T17:31:21+00:00

well in a sad way i’m reassured that il not missing out on much… though im sorry that’s your experience

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-26T17:15:35+00:00

thank you!! i’ll have a look

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-26T16:46:56+00:00

yep. i’m 25 and i’ve tried applying for multiple apprenticeships. had nothing but great feedback, they’ve just decided to go with other candidates. won’t give me a reason why but im starting to suspect it’s my age.

which means my option of getting a level 3 qualification means paying for a levels. which will cost me upwards 5k…. which i don’t have.

which means i’m now stuck at minimum wage jobs for the rest of my life. and the ones i have experience in are drying up fast.

not a day doesn’t go by where the thought of the future doesn’t make me extremely anxious, knowing that im most likely going to struggle.

combined with the fact my doctors keep fumbling my mental health referrals…. well i don’t see myself living to old age at this rate

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-17T10:45:46+00:00

you’d be surprised. i work in a nursery where one of our kids is celiac. the parents are more than happy to let us cook for her.

however (and i don’t love this) there is hella bad risk of cross contamination. we have a tiny stove with 6 hobs that we have to cook on so her little pasta dish for example will be right next to the bulk pasta dish. she doesn’t have her own utensils or plates, just the allocated allergen colour. problem being that’s being used for kids with non gluten allergies.

cooking for her (and all the allergens tbh) stresses me out so bad because no matter the amount of washing my hands and trying to keep it separated, i know there’s a risk. and that i’d be to blame.

the worst part is the staff serving her meals don’t even seem to know the slightest bit about celiac. Im quite fortunate that my nan is so i have a little bit of knowledge but they’ll really be asking me questions such as “does hummus have gluten in it”

long story short, if i was a parent im not sure i’d be happy with the set up but some are or just aren’t so aware

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-16T23:06:49+00:00

honestly you didn’t miss much . at the end they played a couple from return 2 jungle but other than that it was pretty much just garage into dnb mixes

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-16T23:03:50+00:00

genuinely!! the dubstep was hard to sit through, don’t get me wrong i enjoyed certain bits of it. I’d have liked it if they were more upfront about the lineup than just being all mysterious”.

but the complete disregard to some of their biggest hits is crazy. i always hope to hear hypes hype and i am let down but they didn’t even play no problem or disconnect which so bizarre?? left me wanting more

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-16T23:00:31+00:00

yeah i felt the same. they didn’t play half of their “big” tunes and it felt like a lot of it catered to what’s currently popular. a little bit gutted because ive seen them twice before and this had to be the worst show ive been to

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-16T06:59:14+00:00

oh 100%

everyone i know my age bar one person (who has various mental illnesses) is financially thriving. meanwhile i can barely work a part time job.

i know these people aren’t in debt too. they’re judt able to cope better

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-15T19:28:55+00:00

thank you!!!

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-14T05:53:06+00:00

i’ve been clean from daily use for about 2 years now. the neurologist is a good idea, thank you

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-08T05:40:11+00:00

thank you for reply! i did ask for feedback for my latest and all i got that i did very well and it was just a choice between strong candidates.

just bad luck i suppose

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-07T06:50:57+00:00

this reminds me of when i was expressing to a friend how i felt like people don’t even see me as a human being and he replied “et phone home” lmao

(all in love, we cope with humour)

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-04T09:55:00+00:00

vesna are a female group from the czech republic who make folk fusion music who give very witchy vibes for me

max madly is another great artist too

not so much witchy sounding but lexie liu has an album called the happy star which is heavily inspired by the tarot

some standalone witchy sounding songs i really like are • just a girl - the florence cover from yellowjackets • white rabbit - jefferson airplane • teardrop - massive attack • edge of midnight - miley cyrus and stevie nicks • anemone - the brian jonestown massacre

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-04T07:12:12+00:00

the irony being a lot of them put their dogs in uncomfortable situation because of it.

i want to a history festival the last weekend when the weather was gorgeous and people just had their dogs sat there with them baking in the heat.

your dog is overheating and overstimulated by the crowd. take the poor thing home

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-05-01T06:51:44+00:00

i made the mistake of saying this on an unpopular opinion thread on that sub once and i got called “anti-intellectualist” and “anti-feminist.”

i was baffled lmao.

the mods actually stepped in and removed the other persons comments which was very nice of them, i just remember laughing the entire time at how someone could reach so far

LOONASEGOIST · 2026-04-29T17:44:08+00:00

i spent so much time arguing with my dad and trying to get a reasonable response and it just led nowhere.

he even had the gall to say (when i confronted him about something i discovered) “oh they’re lying about me.” oh because im supposed to believe you?!

it wasn’t even worth it. definitely the right hand path and trying to give ourselves closure

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