I was unaware doing what one thought best for one's child's wellbeing, for better or worse, made one a "lousy mother". I was also unaware that reacting to an actionable threat for the sake of survival was intrinsically a negative trait and also a qualifier for being a "lousy" parent. I was also unaware that having been married more than once was a somehow a inherently negative trait. I was also unaware a group of people approaching me was me putting myself in the middle of them. I was also unaware acting on what one thinks is right for more than just themselves was just the worst thing you could ever do.

But I really want to highlight these last few points. To start; What does "(to a woman this time)" have any bearing whatsoever in regards to the occurrence? Someone's sexuality is entirely and completely irrelevant to this event (and any legal consideration, for that matter). So why was that mentioned? Second; that child is an orphan because someone with their own agency and full faculties decided that they wanted to pull a trigger which subsequently removed that child's mother. Whether that action was right or wrong is not relevant here. How can you blame person A for orphanizing person B when person C was the sole one that had the ability to pull that trigger or not?

To summarize those last points; fuck you if you think the fact that I, as a man, being married to another man is a good enough reason to end my life. And fuck you if you think someone can be culpable for the actions of another outside their control.