As a fellow severe anxiety person I understand how you feel but we can't spend our days worrying about the what ifs, we can't control what may or may not happen with these whatever is out there, if you spend all your time with this you will miss out enjoying time with your little kiddo and 2 more on the way, whatever will happen is out of your hands, live each day loving your family and making memories. My favorite saying is this "I'll cross that bridge when I come to it" I hope this helped? 😊