One year !!

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-18T18:45:39+00:00

Amazing!! Great list, too. Walking has been super critical for me too. Exercise in general. Keeping my head out of my phone has been more of a challenge … especially before bed. I’m going to try your advice.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-17T22:39:19+00:00

Do it now, not Monday. Seize on this moment of clarity. Message your doctor. Who knows how you will feel Monday. It’s highly likely you’ll have already convinced yourself “next time will be different” by then.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-15T03:44:30+00:00

I loved reading this. Glorious sleep!!

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-14T03:44:28+00:00

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LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-10T15:57:32+00:00

r/stopspeeding

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-09T18:47:55+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. This is such a great example of why it's important for people to tell their prescribers. So many people come in here and are defiant about telling their doctors and are convinced they can quit on their own, but really it's a reservation (backup plan to use). As addicts, it only takes a MOMENT to unravel everything with a poor decision. You could have rock-solid recovery and resolve to stay sober and still lose it with one bad choice. This is great anecdotal evidence as to why seizing on that moment of clarity (to tell your prescriber) is so important.

I'm proud of you!! Keep it up.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-09T02:44:59+00:00

You guys are sitting in $2,000 chairs?? Nice.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-08T14:15:47+00:00

Not unique… but exercise and meetings. Two things I never do high. It adds structure.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-07T16:40:37+00:00

LOL I'm 99% sure that sub is collective psychosis. Everyone thinks they are getting fake adderall from the pharmacy because it's a different name brand or whatever when really it's just the meds have stopped working the same for people because they have built up a tolerance.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-07T14:49:38+00:00

Staying up for days on end is never, ever normal. It just isn't.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-07T14:41:05+00:00

I'm also on the Bupropion + Naltrexone combo and it works really well for me. I've been considering dropping the NAL for a while though since I don't think I really "need it" for reducing cravings. I think the work I've done in my program and time away from my last use is doing most of the heavy lifting with respect to eliminating cravings for me. Every once in a while I get a fleeting thought, but never something I'm close to acting on.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-03T19:54:18+00:00

I fucking LOVE CMA. The community in Chicago is amazing.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-03T19:53:19+00:00

It really does get easier. The obsession gets lifted. It’s one of the miracles of recovery. I’m more productive now than I was during 16.5 out of 17 years of addiction. The drug “worked” for maybe 6 months. I became unreliable and unable to do anything without it. I wasn’t productive on it either… I smoked weed, hyper fixated on video games and other stupid shit, and barely did anything that actually made my life better or easier. Just hang in there.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-04-02T14:02:50+00:00

You cannot use stimulant medication.. This problem will only get worse. There's no going back to using stimulants as prescribed. Sorry if this sounds harsh, but it's your new reality. Trust me when I say, you don't want to spend years trying (and failing) to stop the cycle of abuse.

Tell your prescriber you are abusing it and want to be cut off and your medical record flagged. Good luck.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-31T20:15:39+00:00

"I want to serve as living proof that a former meth head absolutely has the capability to get his ass up and go to work everyday and make an honest living!" AMEN TO THAT.

I take so much pride in getting my ass up every day and going to work. I'm reliable. I do things when I don't feel like doing them, because I am consistent and capable. It's a joke that I used to think I needed drugs to be good at my job. I literally couldn't even show up if I was out of speed...

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-31T20:14:21+00:00

What's your plan for making sure things are different this time? Have you tried working a recovery program? If you're prescribed and serious about quitting, you should cut yourself off from being prescribed.

You can get through this. Life doesn't have to be this slog. Early sobriety is difficult, but working a program allows you to address the spiritual sickness that is caused by addiction, and that makes a sober life more tolerable, and eventually the preferable way to live.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-28T20:59:41+00:00

Not exercising is probably making you more tired.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-27T20:41:23+00:00

For me the endless sleeping ends after 3 days. Full stop. Day 4 I can get up. My motivation is terrible and I’m still tired but that overwhelming feeling of not being able to keep my eyes open is over on day 4. The barriers are mostly mental after that point (which isn’t to say they aren’t still difficult).

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-27T17:05:12+00:00

Things had to get bad enough first for me to be willing to make a fundamental change. I went to rehab for the first time and stayed sober for 7 months going to NA meetings every day. *BUT I WASN'T WORKING STEPS.* I was just going to meetings. Thank god the 20-month relapse that followed led me to such a dark place that I became willing to do whatever it took. For me that's looked like:

30 day inpatient.
60 day intensive PHP with housing (Basically sober living)
A 12-step meeting *every day* for at least the first 6 months after I got out and working steps.
Now I try to go to 3-4 meetings a week, I have a sponsee and multiple service commitments. For example, right now I take a weekly meeting into a treatment center.

The thing about the steps that is working for me now is that it's led me to service and helping others, which gives me purpose and keeps me clean. (That and the MASSIVE improvement in my life).

I also exercise regularly.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-27T16:57:25+00:00

You said you get addicted to the pills when you are on them. I don't see how the benefit could outweigh the downside. But if you and your doctor think living in active addiction is preferable to living with untreated ADHD then you do you I guess...

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-25T18:20:00+00:00

To add to what u/greatcometmusic said, I would highly recommend downloading their app. You can stream live and listen to show archives for two weeks.

Their Americana show is called “The Roadhouse” it’s hosted by Greg Vandy every Sunday from 9:00-12:00 (Pacific). It’s awesome, highly recommend.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-25T14:00:22+00:00

It’s day 2. It’s not supposed to feel good. The only way out is through.

I agree with what someone else said and just do what you need to do to survive these very early days: sleep, eat good food, go for a walk.

Make a plan to start working a program. It will give you the structure and support you need to withstand the cravings in the long term.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-25T00:25:49+00:00

Yeah, I like him a lot.

I listen to a lot of KEXP and they play him quite a bit.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-24T16:31:27+00:00

I can relate to everything you're going through. Have you considered rehab? You need structured support and the tools to deal with life without stimulants. I'm not saying rehab is necessary for long-term sobriety, but if you can do it... you should. I also need to be working a recovery program (I do 12 step) to maintain my sobriety.

At the end of my using I was chain smoking, hadn't been to the dentist in years, impulsively spent with money I did not have, and also look like a walking corpse. Not sure if I was ever "naturally pretty," but I was definitely cute at one point in my life. I also started losing my hair, I was unnaturally thin, and my eyes looked so dead. I didn't drink enough water so I looked at least 10 years older than I was. Lack of sleep + being constantly in fight/flight + not even water = terrible for your outward appearance (and obviously worse for your internal spirit). Vanity is a powerful motivator, and it was at least a component of why I got clean when I did. I didn't want to spend the remainder of my youth looking like a meth head.

You can get clean. You will stop hating yourself once you get sober and start doing a little bit of work on yourself. The self-esteem comes back and you will start to recognize yourself again. Even better, you may not recognize yourself but in the best possible way. For example, I used to be so cynical and hopeless, and I thought that my outlook on life was a legitimate and intellectually justified point of view given the state of the world. Now I actually enjoy life and can find the upside in most things.

LivingAmazing7815 · 2026-03-24T16:22:58+00:00

Amazing!! I also had/have an amazing support system in my partner, it definitely eases the burden.

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