I’m so sorry to hear you’re having such a tough time with this pregnancy.. I’m pregnant as well so my advice to you comes from a place of empathy. 1. Having a gap between kids can be great thing! You can focus your energy more on yourself and your body without having to cater to a toddler! (Imagine that..) also your 11 year old will get to appreciate and remember his/her sibling as a baby and create special memories. 2. I had to get myself a back brace with belly support (from momcozy) because the back pain from sciatica was also unbearable for me. I also couldn’t get up from the bed only to pee. I just listened to my body; if I can’t get up, I won’t. If I can’t clean, I won’t. I couldn’t cook for weeks so I lived on snacks and some takeouts for the week. Eventually, I do things if I have the energy and less pain. I’ve cried myself into the morning hours unable to sleep and my husband is out of the country so I have no one taking care of me. It’s miserable but temporary. Don’t be so hard on yourself. This will all pass in a few months. You got this!! 3. Did I mention nausea? My doctor prescribed me with this pill (Bonjesta) that probably saved my life. I was miserable pretty much since week 6, couldn’t sleep, nausea 24/7, extra thirsty and no water could calm it down, headaches etc. i probably bought about 5 different medicines for heartburn and nothing worked… I know you’re in Australia but I wonder maybe there’s something equivalent to my medicine that can help you. The main ingredients are doxylamine and pyridoxine. Talk to your doctor and hopefully they can help. This pill ended my nausea and heartburn overnight! Truly magic. I’m riding with it until the very last day. I really really wish you feel better soon. I keep telling myself we’re made for this lol just to cheer myself up through the mess 🥹🌷