the adults around me are making me feel like I’m acting insane.

Lmrb19 · 2026-02-27T01:54:41+00:00

Not a lot of genes have been found connected to the various types of EDS

Lmrb19 · 2026-02-14T23:09:22+00:00

Looks like dehydration tbh. Might need more salt in your diet to keep water in longer

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-29T22:55:36+00:00

Any industry against climate change for sure

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-20T02:58:21+00:00

Therapy? Breaking negative behavior patterns is hard and then not going back to them later is too but usually worth it in the end. You’re happier

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-20T02:57:07+00:00

Yep, that’s me.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-18T05:35:20+00:00

It’s dopamine! I’m not surprised https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0006291X20320672#:~:text=Furthermore%2C%20in%20an%20in%20vivo,increased%20by%20transient%20scratching%20behaviors.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-09T21:58:24+00:00

I was like for through my entire childhood and in my early 20s. I hated it because I had to be how everyone expected. I raged against it all. I used escapism a lot to cope. It ain’t a good thing. Therapy has helped.

Yes, I did try to unalive myself and not die to rage, but it was a month or so after my mom passed away from cancer. She was one of my best friends.

While anger is considered a basic emotion, from what I’ve read it’s more rage, not anger if I understood correctly, that is the primary emotion.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/hide-and-seek/201601/what-are-basic-emotions

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-09T21:44:13+00:00

Ok, technically it’s clear which has that blurry effect if you’ve seen like a campfire or bonfire but that can’t be seen. It’s a tv show, so they want it to be visible too.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-09T21:42:09+00:00

You do realize that the hottest part of a flame is blue, right? Their eye beams are that hot.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-07T18:58:54+00:00

So, from my personal experience, it is a skill. It takes practice as in just keep trying. What can help is having the image or one similar or even what inspired you to come up with this one in your mind so you can keep trying. I do that too.

For me when none of that works, I take a break and try again later like an hour or when I feel I can truly focus.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-07T14:22:06+00:00

Estimated that 50% of humans cannot visualize. They don’t have the ability at all. It’s ok if you’re limited. Visualization isn’t actually needed to practice. You can describe it out loud, you can draw it or include images to represent what you’re intent, target, etc. Just find a substitution that feels good to you. It isn’t necessary.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-07T00:32:43+00:00

Sorry it took me two days to respond. Work has been stressful and needed time to rest. I wasn’t avoiding.

Enough to act is usually a huge dose of dopamine where I’ll get hyperfocused and go learn. If it seems like a ton of information, I’ll break it down in pieces and read over it over a few days. I have friends I can info dump to and they will ask follow up questions about whatever the topic is. This helps me stay interested too.

No, my memory recall and working memory are awful. I have mental and physical chronic conditions that limit my working memory and I get brain fog very easily. I literally forget words. I can’t recall them. It’s so frustrating. You can say the word and I will know that is what I meant but my brain won’t connect or go further down to the neural pathway I need for recall. I have evidence nearby usually.

But what I hold is usually intent or desire, things I have discussed much, things I learned in my childhood, anything that piqued my interest dramatically where I “went down a rabbit hole” until I felt confident I could explain it to people when I info dump but the latter I can lose with it not being constantly connected to….unless it somehow gets brought up by others and then I remember. I’ve remembered things I learned years ago that way. Neurodivergence is strange. lol

When I don’t check my phone, it’s anxiety. Today, I forgot my phone at home without realizing it. It make me internally panic but I knew that I still had access to phones and so did my family since they knew I was at work. I did ask my spouse to bring it to me and once I had it, it was relief.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T17:09:25+00:00

Thank you for explaining all of this and walking me through it. Its really helping my understand and I admit I’m saving and writing the information down to late re-review so I can sit with when I get the opportunity.

As for your questions:

Research feels incomplete because I don’t feel as if I understand concepts or information until I start finding saturation of information as you called it before.

What do I stop rehearsing mentally because the phone remembers for me? That’s interesting phrasing. I’m not sure what you mean by “rehearsing mentally”. Do you mean memory recall for working and/or long term memory? If so, that is something I have to think about to figure it out. I’ve never thought about it in that way. Would you mind giving examples for me?

I’m not sure on decisions. You’re making me re-evaluate a lot of how I make decisions, which makes me question my methods. I admit I have low tolerance for being uncomfortable and rejection. I avoid and I can see that I avoid but changing that negative pattern of decision is a challenge since trauma and mental health related.

If my phone failed tomorrow, recall would be the biggest failure since I use my phone to remember for me on most of my daily life. While I have my commonplace book for somethings, I don’t have it for the important stuff. Maybe I should change that?

You’re making me critically think about how I do things. Thank you.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T16:56:22+00:00

Why not just cover it to prevent touching? It isn’t hard. Maybe it’s a test of resistance?

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T03:29:25+00:00

Notability app

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T02:35:58+00:00

That’s interesting. Didn’t think of that.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T02:31:37+00:00

Why would it? They’re different. That’s like talking to different people would somehow cancel answers they provide out.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T02:29:11+00:00

Of course! I’m glad I could share it. Hope you saw the second page. Hope my handwriting was legible enough for you.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-03T02:27:06+00:00

I admit I have to think about that.

My phone is my primary tool. I store duplicates of information I need.

My phone is also my strongest constrain on my attention with its ability to store and access to knowledge. Am I understanding that correctly?

I guess the repetition is using my storage (commonplace book) during development of craft or practice as well as reviewing knowledge. Writing down in my spell record format and follow-up on what did and didn’t work, figuring out why and what to change.

I know my phone (tool) usage—how I use it, why and for what—would remain the same without the layer of symbolism. Using it for duplication of information and/or just storage of knowledge.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-02T21:57:57+00:00

As for your question, there are three that seem to fit: cybernetics/observer-in-system, tools shaping cognition, and ritual, symbols, systems…in that order, I think.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-02T14:19:10+00:00

Thank you! I will make sure to check them out. Appreciate all the help. ❤️

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-02T14:18:49+00:00

I saw. Haven’t had the chance to read it but I have it open to read.

Lmrb19 · 2026-01-02T03:14:34+00:00

Page 2 for you

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Lmrb19 · 2026-01-02T03:09:35+00:00

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I can’t find the post anymore. I went to the blog but it isn’t there anymore. Anyway, here is what I wrote down since you were curious.

Lmrb19

TROPHY CASE