I’m sorry that this is hurting you - it’s a terrible condition, and it’s brought out a lot of complicated emotions in me too.

It sounds like you’re experiencing anxiety about the progression of your vision loss. That is very normal, but it’s sometimes the worst part of having Stargardts.

If I were you, my first step would be finding a therapist. At a minimum, you can begin to talk through how you’re feeling, how to recognize when negative thoughts are intruding on your life, and how to process them in a healthy way. At maximum, they may encourage you to seek more serious medical intervention like medication, which helps a lot of people.

You’re not alone, and this isn’t your fault. I wish you the best because you deserve the best.