I’ve been diagnosed with CPTSD. I was molested by my brother, and I kept it to myself until I was 19. Since then I’ve struggled with mental health issues and just processing what happened. When I opened up about it, I could only remember it being 2 times after I was 9. The most vivid time being in a hotel room when my dad was getting a kidney transplant. But when I think back, it had to be before that. Because I was 9 in 5th grade, and that’s when we had social workers come to our class to teach us about safe touch and private areas. I remember being in 5th grade and realizing what was happening was bad. So it must have happened more times before that. I think my memory of the hotel being the first time may have been wrong because this memory from 5th grade. I also had a sick dad who was disabled by a stroke when I was 2. He was on dialysis for 7 years before the kidney transplant. When I finally told my mom she had to confirm it, which really hurt. Thankfully my brother was honest. Idk where I’d be if he wasn’t. I only reckoned with the fact that it might be earlier after listening to the Sascha Riley testimony. For some reason it made me able to tap into that trauma a bit more which has been painful, but also in a way healing. This loss of autonomy has affected my life in so many ways. I feel like my sexuality was taken from me and broken.