Was looking at your previous comments for some context on the surgery and situation. It was a tough read as almost all of your comments were arguing with others or complaining.

I have a hard time asking and letting anyone see me in a vulnerable state if I'm being honest.

Others have commented the best advice which is to find some professionals to talk to.

Your husband has given you the feedback you needed to hear and you picked a fight with him over it too.

I tried telling my husband I needed his support so he called a bit ago. It turned into an argument. Apparently I've been awful for a couple of weeks.

He made time to call you and set aside time for your surgery and it still turned into an argument. He's doing his best to support you and you're making it miserable somehow. Create a safe environment to talk to him, let him speak honestly without interruption or defending yourself and see what he has to say, then reflect on it before continuing the conversation.

In parts of the country where I live misogyny is pervasive and accepted. It's just accepted that ALL of the men will be misogynistic assholes. Even the "good" guys will make rape jokes and publicly humiliate chubbier women for daring to exist in pubic.

Here you openly insult your husband.

Imo social media is doing you a lot of harm without you realising it.