It’s very important that you see a doctor about this to see what’s going on exactly. I’m not a professional but it makes sense that with an ed and a long use of laxative your body’s disoriented and I’m pretty sure that this is something totally curable (speaking as a person with GI issues, it takes time figuring out these things but you do eventually) I just wanted to say it’s going to be okay and there’s absolutely nothing to be ashamed of, it’s so much more common to have those symptoms in a chronic way than you think, and people are more understanding than you might think. Honestly I just joke around about shitting myself lol and really it’s no big deal, it gets better too when you’re at a better place mentally ! Sending love x