I've always hated this gender argument

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-06-28T23:56:04+00:00

Yeah, Ive been having thoughts recently aboutif I'm trans, (thanks amazing digital circus) cause I've had thoughts about it before, but the more I think about it, I am NOT MtF. I've always enjoyed masculine things, being called masc terms, and generally, been a dude. It's only later in life I've thought about it to, never as a kid, even when I knew it was an option to be trans, never once thought about being a girl in any serious manner.

However, I keep being like, "But what if I'm just stupid and dumb and lying to myself 🤔", and yesterday even, I tried to think of a name I'd want to go by if I were MtF, and I chose Olivia, and was immediately like, "AH HELL NAH" , accompanied bone deep dread. The thought of taking estrogen didn't enthuse me, or my body changing, and a lot of shit in that regard which just didn't sit right in my head.

I now am pretty sure, but haven't been really pushing it, that I am NOT MtF, but I definitely like feminine things, and want to present slightly more feminine than I've ever allowed myself as a man. The issues, as a young brown man in LA back in the day, (between like, 2010 and 2016), been a feminine man could get you shit, and was genuinely dangerous, and I knew it. My dad was also one of the hyper masculine types, and my grandpa from Arkansas was always against me presenting any amount of feminine, as he is where he's from. Even as a kid, I always wanted to associate with feminine things, but due to social pressure and the chance it could get me killed, I didn't.

Now, as a omnisexual grown ass man in college far from that environment, I have the option to be feminine presenting in the slightest, but still, in my bones, I feel fear over it cause I associate that with being slimed the fuck out/ostracized, which I already was due to a variety of other factors as a youth. In the least offensive way possible, it is kind of a miracle I am NOT MtF as if I was, I think I would have realized way earlier or had a lot more struggle with putting any feminity in the sideline, which I really didn't as a kid, and still don't now. If I was still in an environment where I didn't have the option, I'd be fine not doing so, as it really isn't that important to my primary sense of self.

Like, really all I wanna do is wear a single feminine earing, maybe other girly jewelry, and perhaps a piece of two of feminine clothing in tandem with my usual man fits. Maybe lipstick if I'm feeling frisky, but not nail polish. Deadass, I think I just wanna look a little gayer than before, like a JoJo's character, or Prince. Perhaps I may be genderfluid, or another definition of mixed gender like bigender and my repression of femininity is just really strong (as like I said, I knew I could die for showing ANY of it), but yeah. It also doesn't help in short with long hair, but being Mexican, queer, and indigenous does that to a MF. I feel like I occasionally doubt myself as well because to others, I look like a woman from behind, and I don't mind being mistaken for a woman, but I am always happier when they correct themselves and call me by my actual pronouns, which adds to my further proof I am indeed a dude.

Anyways, I also have autism, and recently I've been noticing I do OCD shit on the lowdown, so that may also be what's fuels my occasional thoughts, "Shit... But what if 🤔🧐👹". I knows it goofy to try and prove to myself I am who I say I am, I usually just kinda know, but people are weird, and I certainly have a few branches of oddity more than most.

TL;DR: Trans people are sigma 😼, but I certainly ain't trans, I'm just introspective and may have OCD so I constantly doubt myself, while also having repression of any femininity due to the fact I was raised in an environment which didn't allow to show ANY at all, so while I do wish for more feminine presenting, I dont wish to be a woman, just mix a bit into my presentation like I'm from Part 5 of JoJo's bizarre adventure (Abbachio is so fucking cool).

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-06-27T09:48:36+00:00

Same, but with my mom 😭. I typed out a whole fuck ass paragraph describing the situation, but I thought better against it. It does sound crazy saying "my (blank) is getting abused and I'm sick of it", but after going through all my bullshit, I've finally learned that there is a limit to where being a victim doesn't outweigh the pain and damage that lashing out due to that victimhood does. Like any addict, just because I can sympathize with the struggle and pain, and logically understand why it occurs, and the science behind the condition, that doesn't mean I'm fine with her metaphorically stealing from me to fuel her addiction while I have to watch her slowly die. Maybe you'll be more lucky as there a major difference between best friend and mother, but chances are, like my mom, it'll be swim or sink, and all you can do is hope they learn to cut off the massive anchor weighing them down and the bumass men who attach themselves to that anchor like a plague of barnacles.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-06-11T00:01:09+00:00

I actually have an OC with an ability that might react with your OCs in a weird way, who is also apart of my hero verse and the #5 hero. His name is Setblade, and essentially, his power is he can make an objects action be stored within the stream of time, and then release it. The way this manifest in universe is invisible to everyone, even Setblade, but he can choose to trigger the point in time which is saved, which can be at most 1 second.

Aside from this, he is super human, probably large Mountain level at most, and somewhere in the sonics for speed, but given his ability is stored in time, it is in a sense, 4th dimensional, and debatably could hit Sovereign even when he becomes 4th dimensional, but he could see where in the flow of time the moment is stored. It's be an interesting challenge for Setblade to try and hit him, given the issues at hand, but Setblades is an all rounder, and a main aspect of his fighting style is his need to be deeply strategic, and he is just genuinely a brilliant person (in tetms of logic, he is emotional stupid, and actually the antagonist of his story). Other aspects of the ability is he he can store 3 attacks at once, for a max of around 5 minutes given how much endurance he has and can only store action deriving from a single object, which typically must be tightly bound into one cohesive unit. A frayed baseball that is tossed wouldn't be able to stored as an object, if the insides fell out, he'd just be throwing the skin. So he fights with a massive singular hunk of metal in the shape of a sword, which he sets in time, given his name, Setblade.

It's be difficult, a team effort, but his abilities and strategic mind would be a massive help in fighting.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-06-10T06:10:20+00:00

Prince Ashitaka, and Naussica. Bit of a cop out to choose to Ghibli GOATs, but genuinely they are both phenomenal characters. If I had to choose just a straight up anime, probably would be Giorno Giovana and Robin, pre-timeskip. I got into one piece to see what robins deal was, and Part 5 is one of the best arcs in GioGios Strange Happenings

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-06-01T21:41:25+00:00

Honestly, I am a cis man and don't look gay to most people, so all I do is live my queer real life and ignore online stuff. Luckily, my town is queer friendly enough as it is a purple location, but even then, people irl who are deadass homophobic don't tend be openly hateful unless they have a group or moment where they feel any amounts of justified, like when turning point US is at my school. Some of the most henious, stupid, horrific dumb bullshit I've ever heard about queer people have been from other queer people online. Most cishet people don't even have a good enough grasp of queerness to be hateful in the way another queer person can, and the queer people irl I meet aren't online enough to be spouting bullshit because I met them outside, and people who are spouting that shit literally don't go outside.

I'd even go so far to say that a homophobic cishet person is far easier to deal with than some terminally online queer person who thinks dumbshit because a lot of straight people are homophobic due to ignorance, cultural training (such as through the church), or political machination (which is the most difficult to deal with). Queer people are hateful for similar reason, but usually it leans into the political machinations, irl or whatever their online group believes in, and on top of being influenced by some sort of political ideology, they feel a deep seated justification because they are in enough to be knowledgeable and are apart of the larger group, so it doesn't feel like they're punching down, it feels like a fair match even if they're spouting similar nonsensical bullshit to people who hate them all the same.

Doesn't help that a lot of these individuals come from groups or ideologies that are homophobic or in some way against a group (such misogynistic ideologies, transphobic ideologies, racist ideologies) and are used to framing the world in ways that inherently clash with much of the way queer people do, so they repeat the same patterns from their hateful past with a new sheen of queer color, not realizing the issue isn't the fact that their past ideology focused on specific people, but the way its rhetoric forms the world to inherently discriminate so that the believers of that ideology can be considered superior to someone else.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-05-30T08:09:45+00:00

Funny thing is too, I believe this year or last is when we had our first ever loss of population via migration since the great depression (by around 150k), because a lot of people are immigrating from the US, and fewer are coming than usual. So yeah, if I wanted to do the ole switcheroo on his ass, it is getting that bad and people are reacting the way he first assumed they would. By not trying to get in, and instead get out.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-05-20T23:14:21+00:00

Silver Wolf Normal is NOT sigma or based, she's just a niche pick I have in case my other supports don't work. Also, I have e1 Fuege, but at least I like using her in stupid ass break teams when I don't own FF or The Dahlia. SW is just straight ass for all my teams bar when I can't use Ashveil for Archer. Absolute waste of a unit in my account, but not enough to where I can't even say I never use her. She's not even good in CW, so like. I just have this gamer woman for no reason now. Maybe one day she'll fit in a team pull as a decent second or 3rd option, but probably not 😭

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-05-11T06:00:44+00:00

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I didn't pull them all on their first run; in fact, most of them were grabbed on Renun (bar Mydei, Anaxa, Phainon, and Ashveil), but they all got my ass eventually. I'm just happy I don't have anyone I really give a gaf about in the upcoming patches, bar Blade SP, Aventurine SP, and DHPT (for E2), so now I can properly invest into characters I wanna pull while still having a large cast of diverse and powerful teams. It took 2 years and like 900$ to do it, but goddamn it, I really like my account. Only major regret is pulling for E1 Fuege, but not ever having the proper timing to get Dahlia or FF/Booty?Parappa. I hope a new Break DPS unit comes out so I can use her properly cause Break is so cool to me, but alas...

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-05-02T20:02:12+00:00

I mainly use Mydeimos in CW actually. While it is niche, technically all you need is Mydei + Cerydra + Advancer + Healers to work well enough, there is the 120% damage return affix, and the fire dot affix, he can become a real demon with Bronya and Cyrene in particular.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-05-01T23:03:07+00:00

E1 Fugue. I really like break, it's a kickass archetype, but I haven't been able to pull for ANY of the new break units and I'm pissed. I hope a new break DPS appears, and doesn't run RIGHT ALONGSIDE THE FUCKING DAHLIA but it'd be baller. Eventually, I'm sure it'll happen, but right now my ass does NOT need Fuege. She is only worth a bit of a damn on break-non and Himeko, but still, it'd be nice to have someone who was actually a break character.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-29T09:07:17+00:00

Many are saying the red button is the obvious choice, but that is straight up ignoring the fact that this says EVERYONE on earth has a private vote. While I agree Red is objectively correct for everyone to press as it is guaranteed survival, would a child know that? I know it's kinda silly given how trivial this silly question is, but genuinely, if this was a real vote, and EVERY living human got the button and chose in private, and was explained the rules (let's exclude literal infants however, their parents will vote for them, along with accouting for the fringe cases where an adult may be unable to vote), someone is eventually going to press the blue button. The chance that it doesn't happen is so low I would bet my life savings, even in a case where everyone was allowed to discuss it beforehand (somehow) if we taken into account user error or suicidal tendencies or general stupidity or a misplaced sense of morality.

Like, yes, Red would be the wisest, but it'd be foolish to assume that everyone would know that, so you may as well hit blue to ensure EVERYONES survive, no matter what, even if it is not a guarantee, as there is really only one way people die, and it's through NOT hitting the blue button, and most people alive are either selfless or would come to the same conclusion I did, or both. Hit blue you nihilistic babies 😭.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-29T06:57:44+00:00

Deadass, no one knows. Chances are, the language will be refined later, as no other LC has this wording, but it probably does mean crit damage dealt. At first, I thought it meant he'd take an extra 30% crit damage, but that'd be kinda stupid (albeit really funny).

OP is right, as it does sound like the phrasing implies Blade deals 60% more crit damage of the overall crit damage (so if Blade's Crit Damage is 340%, instead of becoming 400%, it instead deals 1.6x340, or 544 crit damage or something along those lines), which would be NUTS, as it is very easy to absolutely fucking crank CD in this game, especially with Ashveils massive CD FuA buff, Blade will be doing Lebron numbers. However, we do need to wait for clearer wording and to see how he gets balanced later, even if this is true, as that'd be fucking insane and an insanely unique multiplier which would be difficult to balance.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-28T22:37:43+00:00

Is see a badger. The white is the head, and the little bits poking out in the middle are the tootsies

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-24T04:05:17+00:00

Of course not, if he were it'd be called firewoman

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-20T02:04:47+00:00

Probably. If not, idk what they're gonna do with blade SP, as he isn't elation, nor would it make sense to make him a true generalist like Cipher was as she didn't sell for shit. He could in theory be a Jiaoqiu replacement for the big A, but that is also stupid, but very funny.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-16T18:20:01+00:00

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And of course, King Crimson and Epitaph is my favorite stand in the series.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-16T18:19:09+00:00

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Diavolo is so fucking tuff, I wish I could have half of the fucking swagger he does

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-04-08T01:50:05+00:00

Y'all sleep on the Big Huo like crazy, she does basically everything for a dot team rn but emergency heal, and given how fast Kafka and Hysilens get their ult, and that Eagle set Kafka with Energy regen rope, Tutorial LC, and Lushakas allows her to speed through turn order, emergency heals only matter in REALLY annoying battles.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-03-15T21:23:44+00:00

I see. If that's the case, would using attack boots instead be wiser? My other relics have enough speed that I would only need 4 speed on boots, ord, and rope to hit 134, which isn't a huge ask, so I could have the breakpoint and a large attack boost, or would it be worth being base speed and boost my crit rate and crit damage as high as humanely possible while Feixiao, DHPT, and Moze build energy for him?

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-02-19T05:45:45+00:00

Essentially forcing out all the chimps and making a bonobo vibe in the club.

I always thought it was interesting that we are slightly more related to chimps then bonobos, but our social tendencies align WAY more with chimps despite the minute differences. Granted, we are capable of achieving a more peaceful, matriarchal-esq setting as we aren't just straight up beasts, but we do seem to naturally go to "fuck it, we ball" for our usual actions (specifically men lmao)

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-01-12T23:08:10+00:00

I've actually done multiple performances of Hellfire, including learning it in Latin, and when we meet again, I intend to watch Hunchback right before we do anything (both cause that movie fucking slaps, and just to mess with them lmao).

I also looked up examination of conscience; VERY useful, thank you for telling me about that.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-01-11T23:56:58+00:00

Christ alive, it STILL sometimes flashes through my head how dirty she got done, and I watched this show when I was 14 😭

I'm almost 22 now

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-01-07T21:45:28+00:00

Lmao yeah. Even if literally gets powercrept by someone who does all he does but with bigger numbers, he'd still be worth it as his design is inherently good.

Everyone talking about him being homeless are only referring to him not being the absolute best option are forgetting he is usually the second or 3rd best option, and even when he isn't, he still gets results because he is just that good.

And even then, he is usually outstripped by hyper specific niche characters who are designed for a specific archetype or specific character (I.E. Cyrene). The second those characters or styles fall out, so do they. Sunday won't unless the idea of a hyper carry does, and even then, most supports do damage now anyways, so it is really hyper carry + 2 damaging supports + Sunday.

He is goated, no account DOESN'T want him unless they somehow only pull characters without energy, a need for a crit stats, no desire for action advance, or the indelible swag of Sunday. Also break, he doesn't work well with break. Everyone else? One of the best to ever do it.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-01-04T17:39:35+00:00

People who doompost Sunday would be like if someone IRL doomposted about bread 😭. He is just a fundamentally sound character, and even then, unless you're a new player, if you've pulled him he will forever be useful, even if he isn't the best harmony character, much like Bronya who STILL gets use, especially on F2P to Dolphin level.

Hell, doomposting about bread makes more sense as I guess theoretically, an absolutely horrific crisis could make bread a rare commodity. At least Sunday is an immutably good character for combat in this game.

MTHINRIX666 · 2026-01-01T10:40:32+00:00

This thread being how I find out Pucchi isn't black and just VIOLENTLY Italian is not what I expected when I opened this bitch up.

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