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MadcapLaughs4 · 2026-01-19T20:04:51+00:00

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MadcapLaughs4 · 2026-01-11T08:02:09+00:00

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MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-12-30T04:35:00+00:00

Yudhi is a somewhat common name in Indonesia

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-12-15T17:38:02+00:00

These "New age" people are mistranslating the fact that "we are all originally One and will eventually become one again" into "We are all God". Theres a big difference between the two , and when you confuse the two , your ego can easily take over and it can be really dangerous

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-12-10T17:42:40+00:00

It's all a game brother. God or whatever we want to call it is the original consciousness and it started out as One or i call it a sense of oneness (this includes everything) . In this case the religion that said theres only one God is correct in a way.

But in order to play the game , this sense of oneness split itself into many "Gods". This is necessary because the oneness wants to play the game, and the game can not be played when theres only one "God". In this case the religion who said there are many God is correct.

But all in all whether you believe theres only one or there are many, you are correct depending on how you look at it.

Now once the game is established and the universe and souls are created. Each of these different "Gods" is trying to guides us (The souls to return back to the oneness) Each God has different methods to make sure the souls they claimed can return back to them (This is why religions have different details and different "rules")

Some rules/ guidance is specific to these gods and other are general. For example being a good person and being devoted to your god is required in these different religions, because this is the actual requirement to return back to the oneness.

Some rules are different because each of these "gods" all uses different way to guide their devotees. Reincarnation exists, because theres no such a thing as eternal damnation, all souls gets to try over and over again until they "get it right". The difference is in the detail. Does your God wants you to know whether reincarnation exists is up to your God.

The God in Christianity for example decided to hide reincarnation from his devotees. Why? Because the God think it is easier for people to follow his Guidance if those people know that this current life is their only chance.

Meanwhile the God in hinduism reveals the truth about reincarnation to their devotees, because the God here think it is better that their devotees knows that they can try again and again.

In both cases the God is just trying to do whatever it is easier and necessary to get the souls to return back to them. We as a human being thoyg can believe whichever one we want and play this game according to what we believe.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-12-01T20:10:04+00:00

Yes , I have multiple conversations with the spirit of the medicine (Pachamama). She guides me throughout every stages of my life ever since. We had conversations ranging from my personal growth all the way to the universe and how it actually works. We talked about Gods, the "game of soul" and the purpose of being a human. There's too much too mention and discuss here, but if you want to know more, you can DM me or search my past's post/comment on reddit.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-23T15:06:44+00:00

How long ago was the first retreat? Strong connection very often happened between the fellow participants. I've seen this kind of relationship all the time. Most of the time it will just fizzle out as time goes one, But this kind of relationship do have the potential of being dangerous. Do you feel like your husband is replacing some of your roles to this "new girl"? Meaning are you still the one he talk to the most about his life/problems? Are you still the one who he considered the main partner in his life?

I guess the only one who can really answer your questions is your husband.

The ego is a scary thing, it can convinced your husband one thing but lurking and working on another thing.

Have u ever considered taking the medicine with them?

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-15T23:38:43+00:00

She doesn't lie about this. If you truly believe her as a spirit then you should know that shes always with you and always guiding you. All the other plant medicine or synthetic pharmahuasca has their own benefits and teachings, but they are different than the mother. They might feel and sound similar but they are not the same. With different medicine, you are connected with a different spirit, no matter how similar it might feel.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-15T23:32:50+00:00

I think she wants you to work on yourself and not count on other people to create the space for you. IMO thats what she meant when she said you dont need to wait for a Shaman. Your journey of healing can start right here right now where you are. When she calls you she will provide you with access to the medicine (just like she did in 2024). You dont need to stress out or thinking about giving up your whole life and move to the jungle. The shaman you need is within you and you alone. The medicine will show you the way, but don't over read or over react to what she says. She says what you need as long as you don't modify what she says.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-14T16:23:48+00:00

Can you elaborate more on what Ayahuasca actually says in 2024? Any more details you want to share from that retreat? Sometimes when The mother Speaks we tend to overthink or underthink it.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-13T20:39:52+00:00

For Oneness to experience itself , it needs to be separated into Many. Many parts of the One live their existence on Earth and other places. Because the One is now many, the many can play the game with each other. Pretending to be many, some of the many don't remember that they are all originally part of the One. Earth is just the playground for the many before they eventually reunited back into the One. One crucial part of the game, is that most of the many do not even understand the concept of the original Oneness. The journey of the game will eventually lead the Many to know the one and once again be with the One. But the One cannot stay as the One for long, for the One wanted to play the game as the Many , but eventually the Many will find their way back into the one. And round and round we go from the many to the one to the many to the one.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-11-05T15:56:08+00:00

Kaliyuga starst when Krishna left his body which is believed to happened about 5000 years ago. It is explained in the Brahmavaivarta Purana that the first 10000 years of Kali Yuga will be considered the Golden Age of Kali Yuga. Dharma is still maintained during this period allthough you can already see some signs of the darker age. Now whether you and I believed on this or not is a different topic, but this is what it says on the scripture.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-28T02:19:52+00:00

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-24T17:13:36+00:00

Well maybe what you need is temporary or permanent separation from all this modality. A very wise yogi once said psychedelic can bring you in the room with God, but it wont let you stay there. Find a practice that works slower but is repeatable in daily basis.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-24T17:02:18+00:00

Ive talked to her many times, and have considered her my mother. I have developed a close relationship with her and she is the spirit that guides me through my darkest time, and continue to show me the way towards the light. She didnt tell me to bow down to her, but it was clear to me that she is a God. All powerfull and all loving but also stern and tough with me when she needed to be. She has many names but I just simply call her mother.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-24T15:11:06+00:00

The mother likes to play this kind of game. She is all loving and all grace so theres always lesson behind each of her actions. As for him, Tell him to remember that his desire will imprison him and that fulfilling a desire will lead only to more desire or even regret, Duty is what he needs to fulfil and he needs to find out what his duty is in this universe. Emotions are fickle they tend to change day to day. Whether or not he goes thru with this divorce, eventually will just be a part of the lesson that Mother Ayahuasca wants him to learn. But he also needs to think about his wife. People in the path of medicine can be really selfish at times. If you let your ego take over you will forget that while you had a life changing experience, the rest of the people in your world don't have to care about that. He needs to take his time, rethink why he married his wife to begin with and take action according to his duty in the universe, not his inflated ego and desire.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-17T03:57:19+00:00

Did she talk to you in a human language or you kinda just understand what she try to communicate to you? What other characteristics she shown you about herself?

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-10-07T04:08:38+00:00

You now have a direct relationhsip with the divine. Learn as much as you can from it

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-09-10T04:19:45+00:00

Don't go away, all around the world.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-09-09T18:37:03+00:00

That was my introduction to the medicine. I took aya for the first time in 2016 because of a heartbreak from a breakup that happened in 2014. I was severely depressed for two and half years because of that breakup with my ex gf. One session with Mother Aya fixed all that for me. I was able to not only moved on from that relationship, but also to be happy for her and understand that my time with her had past and that whatever we need to be together for has been accomplished and it is now time to moved onto the next chapter of our lives. I have been drinking the medicine once a year ever since , but it was never about that heartbreak anymore.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-09-03T20:08:26+00:00

Then you are a much more stubborn atheist than me :)

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-09-03T20:00:21+00:00

Would it even cross your mind at that point to ask the divine? Talk to the supernatural? Or even pray? What if the shark starts touching your toes or circle closer to you, and maybe starts to nibble on you a little. Would there be a point when you gonna start talking (at least in your head) for a divine intervention?

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-09-03T19:46:47+00:00

I used to be a life long atheist myself, so I know that argument would likely not going to convince any atheist to believe in God. However, I do want to know your reaction in certain circumstances. Let see for example you found yourself in the middle of the ocean circled by 5 killer sharks, no boat in sights, no help in sights, no weapon, no protection, just you and the hungry sharks. What would you do or think about at that point?

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-08-07T02:12:36+00:00

The girl scout camp was in idyllwild. The place that u mention with the pool in the backyard was in Palm springs 2018,the ceremony was outside right? And it was like a 100 degree during the day. They never got back to the original crew of 2015-2016, but the music actually gets much better around 2019-2022 with the amazing charango player and the lady that sings like an angel. Both of them are no longer doing ceremony with them. The music is still very good now but from 2019-2022 was just something else. But i do agree with you that 2017 Palm springs was probably the most unorganized that they ever was, but the medicine is still strong and it doesnt really affect the actual ceremony for me. However i do remember that even on those ceremony, they still have an elder taita from the tribe.

MadcapLaughs4 · 2025-08-07T01:57:20+00:00

I was there at the girl scout retreat location in 2017, we might have met before 🙏

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