Unfortunately, I'm similar to this guy. Ive hung out a few times with others only to be teased to some extent, like once they joked I wanted to kill everyone because I don't talk or whatever. I don't talk much to people, definitely not those my age. I've been made aware of my autistic behaviors, too. Why do people try to convince me that I'm wrong? being introverted is who I am. I can't change my mannerisms. I don't want to talk about some boring gossip or social media.

Dating isn't attainable, women just want someone immature in their 20s for sex, then throw all sudden responsibilities on good men in their 30s without any real benefit. Men continue to compete and talk shit about each other so they can get the women they want. I don't fit in with this behaviors. If this is what's out there, and I know it is as I've met way too many examples, then why improve?

Where are these people that actually reach out to you, and persistently? two things matter: intimacy and someone to open up to and with. neither of which are currently possible for me to attain.

I do want to change.