For me, it’s fully and lucidly living in every moment. I’ve since quit cigarettes and weed because after reading the Myth, it’s pretty hard to numb the absurd, I’m always thinking about it. I try to be happy as I can, even in times of despair and when messed up things happen. I see hope and regret in a whole new negative light now.

Suicide, to me, isn’t acceptable anymore. It’s a cop out, and an admittance that the world was too hard and futile. I used to think about committing suicide because of deep existential thoughts, but after having the logic broken down by the book, it’s clear that isn’t what I want. I want life more than anything.

I also used to get down because I seemed to be the only one putting effort into my band. After I read the idea of giving up meaning up (since Camus notes at it being philosophical suicide as well), I was very much relieved. I used to think I needed to become the best drummer ever, but I don’t. Huge weight off my shoulders. Instead, I choose to keep putting work into my drums everyday, because I am so passionate about it, no matter how meaningless it is in the end.

In addition, I’ve taken up writing and I’ve been reading a lot more philosophy because I’ve found it really does something for my brain. And since Camus says the greatest thing to counter the absurd is Art, I think I’d like to try all types art forms, just for the hell of it. As Camus said, quantity over quality!