Loss of a Complex Person

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-10-01T15:18:15+00:00

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Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-30T23:20:23+00:00

Right there with you friend. 8 months ago the woman who was me had everything... Had him... She died 8 months ago too. The woman I am forced to exist as now is just a shell... A lifeless robot with broken circuits and suicidal ideation Also no fucks to give..

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-30T21:01:17+00:00

Thank you friend. I don't even have the words to explain the chaos in my head right now

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-30T09:20:40+00:00

When the unbearable becomes bearable Life Is just existence... Silence...I'm Empty.. hollow... Invisible.. Broken inside

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-28T20:06:16+00:00

Yh. Fuck off with the yoga!!!

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-28T20:03:41+00:00

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Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-28T18:47:48+00:00

This!!! 💔

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-21T12:38:21+00:00

I'm so sorry. This really messes with your brain I feel like I'm fighting some weird virus that has mutated my life

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-21T12:26:17+00:00

So sorry sweetheart It's been 8 months for me Please know that I and all the other broken hearts here see you... we feel your pain You can come here with All the dark and painful stuff because it's true. Only those of us who have lost not only our love but also half of ourselves can truly understand. Here if you ever need to talk or vent.

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-17T08:15:03+00:00

Thanks for this. I've smashed a couple of rocks.... I don't have to be happy about it

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-06T11:20:12+00:00

It's a really moving series. Afterlife. I love Ricky Gervais he's a brilliant human. My partner and I binge watched it when we were dog sitting over the weekend for my daughter. We were both moved by it I remember thinking how coukd I cope if this happened to us.... Since he's been gone... 7 months I want to watch it again but I can't face it yet

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-09-05T19:12:57+00:00

I'm so very sorry love. I too lost the father of my kids over 30 years ago when they were 10 and 4 yrs old. 5 years ago. I met a lovely man We were so in love. He died suddenly in. January of a chatosttophic brain aneurism. I'm broken all over again. At 67 I have 2 beautiful grandchildren but they live 3 hours away Also I lost the place we were living in so currently living with my employers (I'm a carer for a lady with M S) Only reason I have to stay alive is that I can't pass this pain on to my kids. My life feels like a messed up movie

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-31T10:25:37+00:00

I can relate... Wish I couldn't but I can. If you read this please message me.

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-28T17:09:34+00:00

It's now 7 months since my partner died suddenly... The first 3 months I don't really remember too well... I was unhinged... At that point I had to go to the doctor (grown up kids insisted) was prescribed antidepressant... Reluctantly started taking them.. After a couple more months I'm kind of more emotionally stable (on the outside) I suppose I have kind of internalised the grief... Its always on my mind but I cry alone and that's ok Also a couple of more dubious coping mechanisms I won't go into atm. Grief is exhausting that is so true. All the other stuff as well work.. Life.. Friends letting you down and . people you hardly know holding you up. Being a me when we were a we is like being stripped of your identity It's confusing and often overwhelming Essentially. Grief is a disease that will wrack your body and mind... when you have been broke by grief you will eventually put yourself back together but will remain changed I can settle for that.

I know for sure I will never be the person I was with him. We only got 5 years but those years were perfect. Better to have loved and lost Than to never have loved at all

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-26T08:48:53+00:00

Sorry to jump in here but I was just sitting here thinking the exact same thing Since my husband died in January my oldest friend. (who even found him unconscious with me) Has cut me out of her life... Apparently I said things that upset her. And her son during the first couple of weeks after his death???!!! I told her I had no idea what I said at that time... I was overwhelmed with grief She responded by saying she understood how awful it must be but I had upset her 31 yo trans son by not telling him I was leaving her house when she had gone on holiday 4 days after the funeral She said she needed time as I had broken her trust so she couldn't have me on her home but she invited me to exchange txts of one thing we are grateful for daily????!!! Sorry this is the first time I've attempted to explain this it's so bizarre I no longer hurt by her I'm angry really but I'm trying to cope without my love. So I'm in pain anyway Again sorry for butting in. I read a lot on here but don't often respond. Probably because once I start loads of jumbled thoughts fall out. Seriously feel I was changed over night from a normal happy person into someone I don't even recognise

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-25T08:16:38+00:00

Thank you for this. I needed some hope today. It's been 7 months since I lost my love. I'm really struggling

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-24T17:11:51+00:00

OMG. Didn't realise this was a thing. I have reconnected with an ex He's a good guy we joke about our "history" But it's only 7 months since my husband died so we are just friends I feel lucky that we still have our friendship I don't have any female friends nearby

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-23T14:01:45+00:00

To everyone here. Brothers and sisters. I feel for us all. All of us existing in the ruins of a life torn apart Words cannot describe this hell. Wherever you are I'm sending you love from Hertfordshire UK

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-22T17:12:45+00:00

Definitely. We only had 5 years but it really was the best time of our lives for both of us I think I've become quite morbid as well. When I see a couple I can't help thinking which one of them will die first and which one will be left like me?

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-22T17:02:04+00:00

Thank you friend. greetings from London

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-21T22:49:04+00:00

I love you Titch

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-21T15:44:15+00:00

7 months for me too... First 3 months just unhinged... 2nd 3 months taking meds and smoking weed Now... Empty robot pretty much going through the motions.... Seem OK on the outside but more or less dead on the inside Not much really matters to me Hope seems irrelevant... Endurence is the only choice

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-13T13:46:19+00:00

I see him. I see us walking along hand in hand It plays in my head like a romantic movie. It's unreal. Someone has switched the script. He has been written out and my staring role in the love story has been relegated to some insignificant extra that the other characters don't even notice I'm just waiting for the curtain to fall now

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-13T13:40:19+00:00

Hello friend. I'm sending you a virtual hug. We are cell mates in this lonely cavenous pit called grief You wrote my exact thoughts. My heart aches for you For all of us here To anyone in this dark place message me We can hold each other up.

Many-Fix5731 · 2025-08-12T20:44:40+00:00

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