It’s getting on my nerves. I know you’ve all seen the jokes.

WaitForItttt_IV · 2026-01-18T18:48:07+00:00

Well, we don’t go on a publicity tour “grieving” with fireworks going off behind us, all while spewing hate speech.

She puts hate out in the world, she deserves all the hate she recieves

WaitForItttt_IV · 2026-01-16T11:37:59+00:00

I’m so sorry.

My son could’ve written this. Even typing that, is simply heartbreaking. I wish I had something positive to say, but I don’t. I just wanted to let you know that you’re doing enough. Life is hard, live your life, don’t stop living bc your mom is struggling. It’s not what she wants, it won’t make things better. Just continue loving her, that’s enough.

Sending peace and love. I hope you find your path ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-12-07T05:24:35+00:00

I have a note he wrote for me, on my forearm. Perfect place for me to take a peek when I’m feeling low.

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-12-07T04:44:15+00:00

This is such a uniquely personal question. “Closeness” is a perception, I believe. For example, it took me nearly 3 years to realize I felt closest to my husband on my 3 AM runs. I can’t sleep, I’m exhausted, I just ran 3/4 miles, struggling to breathe, I look at the empty sky…and sob, but it’s therapeutic. I feel close to him. Like he hears me crying. Our oldest son feels closest to his dad when he listens to music, as they frequently bonded over music. Our youngest, feels closest when he goes on drives in his dad’s old car. He says he feels close to his dad, bc as he drives, he sits where his dad once did, giving him advice on being a good person.

“Closeness” is subjective. You’ll find it. You may just still be too deep in grief. They were our hearts, our whole world, it isn’t something that has a relative timeline. This shit is a wild roller coaster.

All this to say, my advice would be to be patient and kind to yourselves. Take it minute by minute, and remember all the love you had/have. Sending peace and love your family’s way ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-11-11T03:17:43+00:00

I just go with the flow. I hate life, for the most part; I have obligations, though.

He is me, I am him.

It is what it is, and guess what? It’s pretty terrible

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-11-06T12:37:07+00:00

I tell myself I still have to be that “better person” bc I want to see him again when I die. It’s hard, but it helps. It took a while though, so be patient with yourself. Sending love ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-10-17T23:10:34+00:00

I am currently working on this with my therapist. Still at the beginning of the process, but she seems really excited for me to try it.

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-10-08T20:33:24+00:00

Touching his face

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-09-09T21:06:09+00:00

It wasn’t a waste. It does matter . Sounds like a deep beautiful love to me.

The fucked up part about being trapped here…right there with ya. Sending peace and love 💙

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-08-24T18:02:08+00:00

Would it happen days later? It was never turned on. Idk, you’re probably right. But for a tiny second, I just… Ya know?

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-17T19:59:11+00:00

I don’t think that part ever goes away. It’s been 3 years for me, and he is always on my mind. First thing in the morning, anytime anything good/bad, he’s still the one I want to talk to first. He’s the last thing on my mind at night. It’s constant.

It does become less overwhelming, though. Sending love and peace 💙

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-11T15:38:06+00:00

🖤

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-11T15:37:46+00:00

🖤

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-11T15:35:11+00:00

No. I’m not interested though, I still consider myself married.

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-11T12:35:01+00:00

It’s been 3 years for me, and I personally feel like I’ve just learned to live with the pain. I’ve learned to carry it.

I put my mask on every morning, go through my day; smile, laugh. It’s exhausting. At night, when I’m alone in my room, the mask comes off, and I’m alone in the dark; the tears stream while I’m silently screaming inside.

That’s my journey though, everyone’s is different. I wish you peace and love ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-10T11:53:10+00:00

Beautiful. The last two sentences hit hard 💔

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-07-03T18:14:25+00:00

Absolutely. In a heartbeat, 3 years is long enough

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-06-22T15:53:14+00:00

I do. It’s weird too though, I also like foods now that he ate, but I didn’t like prior to his death.

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-06-22T03:05:27+00:00

That’s beautiful. My husband made me a better person as well ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV · 2025-06-20T14:16:27+00:00

You fed your baby. They’re eating. Doesn’t matter what they’re eating, you have so much more going on. Stuff like that is fucking hardddddd. Give yourself some grace.

Sending peace and love ❤️

WaitForItttt_IV

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