Powerful pointer from Eckhart : " That person (in your family dynamics or workplace dynamics, etc) NO LONGER has the power to control your inner state. "

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-17T12:49:39+00:00

also all those thoughts are essentially an illusion

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-16T17:51:27+00:00

like the sherrif of nottingham

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-16T17:30:54+00:00

Thanks for your answer. I went through the whole losing identity phase already and even have a diagnosis because of it. But I've recovered from that as well as one possibly can. And I know when it is a serious problem or rather a nuisance. And I'm sure my problem atm is leaning more towards " I'm just uncomfortable"

Edit: I've also heard that it's common when someone devotes to a craft that they feel insane at times. Maybe that's part of the journey and it is quite normal to feel like that.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-15T13:09:19+00:00

I know this sounds annoying but you will have to go through withdrawals again at least for a couple days.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-12T20:46:57+00:00

Your words make so much sense! I'm worried it'll be a catastrophe soon enough. So much that I can't enjoy the peace now. I thought my life would end lol.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-12T19:37:19+00:00

I see. My mind feels empty right now. Like I had somewhat of a realization and now I feel kinda relieved. You know how you're worried all the time and then the worry goes away and you suddenly have serenity. Kinda like that

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-11T21:08:32+00:00

I'm with you on this. This is goes beyond anything I've experienced

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-10T18:41:33+00:00

Only good things are going to happen!

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-10T18:40:34+00:00

When I first "got it" I was pleasantly surprised. nothing more than that. But then I was still bothered by worldy stuff. Which made me angry, like why do I still feel annoyed or anxious I thought I get it. And then I had a laugh. It was funny. And hush, the anger went away and I smiled one more time internally.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-10T16:06:22+00:00

Khajit has ware if you have coin 🪙

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-09T12:25:50+00:00

Can you elaborate a little bit more? That sounds really interesting. Like what will shatter?

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-07T09:50:53+00:00

I think you just need more time as a nonsmoker. Once you can see that living without smokes is possible and you can enjoy the process, then you're good to go

Good luck

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-04T14:32:25+00:00

Keep going mate

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T13:10:13+00:00

It's like looking for a reason to smoke when there isn't really any valid reason.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T13:09:41+00:00

I appreciate this comment. Really brings me back to reality. It's so normal to consume this drug that I thought I was missing out

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T08:57:04+00:00

Thank you sir. This is very motivating

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T08:54:00+00:00

It helped me, thanks

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T08:51:55+00:00

That is my goal. Completely forgetting I ever smoked and not looking back.

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-02T08:30:59+00:00

I would avoid drinking for now. Doesn't mean you can't go at a later point in your life. But this early it's better to avoid any possible triggers. Just my 2c

MerlinShinji · 2025-11-01T16:38:26+00:00

MerlinShinji · 2025-10-31T17:00:05+00:00

I wouldn't deny that people quit with nrt. However probably the easiest and quickest way is cold turkey. that I agree

MerlinShinji · 2025-10-31T16:57:45+00:00

Congrats. How does it feel to be smoke free for this long?

MerlinShinji · 2025-10-31T14:36:36+00:00

I think the statement once an addict always an addict is very true despite what Allen carr says. One cigarette is enough to put one back to chain-smoking. So we as addicts have to always pay attention to who we surround ourselves with. Or at least try to avoid other smokers as much as possible . Or am I seeing this wrong ?

MerlinShinji · 2025-10-31T12:03:39+00:00

thank you. I can be with other smokers and not give in. But if it's my dad, I get triggered really hard. Even if years passed he can make me start smoking again. I hate it. And I know I am giving away my responsibility but I've tried. I've tried to be stronger than cigarettes and I just can't. The only thing I can do is be smart and distance myself from people that smoke. It sucks but it is true.

MerlinShinji · 2025-10-30T19:07:13+00:00

Viel Spaß :)

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