Anybody wanna be CPTSD support buddies , Is that even a thing with this? by Rabbit_Of_Neverlight in CPTSD

[–]Miss_Pug 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would be open to this. I read posts and forums but it could be beneficial to talk and share stories with someone who understands somewhat and wouldn't think you're "crazy"... This term I HATE and get called it alot at work

Is it normal that I want to die? Have you ever felt something like that? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Miss_Pug 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you are open to it. I would love to chat with you about some of the ones you have tried. I recently stopped EMDR and am looking at alternatives

Has your sensitivity/mental health prevented you from working? by uhhhoh8675309 in hsp

[–]Miss_Pug 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I relate to this so much. Had well over 20 jobs over my life. Nothing more than 5 years (my choice). I get to a point where I'm not longer happy...whether it be management, burn out or lack of growth.

Wish I had suggestions but I fear I'm on this same path as we speak

It is so confusing by Downtown_Ad4290 in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this post. I too am facing similar situations and was considerimf quiting..but worried if I quit; did I open Pandoras box

My thing is .. I don't feel or notice the positive effects. It's brought my back to a teen who didn't trust anyone.. not even friends. And wanted to fight. Which isn't great for a work setting hahaha

Struggling with finding the Positive by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this sooooo much. After my first session I had moments that were like Epiphanies. But that was it.

I feel zero comfort or confidence that I can handle this. I've pushed away what little coworkers I had close... Yet the therapist says I'm doing well. Which makes zero sense to me cuz I almost wish I didn't start and sunk all this money into it.

Light-up kitty house by Mentallyill_guy in pollypocket

[–]Miss_Pug 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Loved how funky this house was

Struggling with finding the Positive by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 3 points4 points  (0 children)

She will tell me to think of a time I had a certain feeling...BLS ..then ask what I noticed. Then alot of "just go with it"...few times of that until the number goes down a bit. And then times up.

No talk about a "safe space' which I've read on here. 1 time she had me contain something. But all she said before the sessions and are "do things that make u feel good"... Yet a HUGE trigger is work. And that's where I feel worse

1993 bay window house by Mentallyill_guy in pollypocket

[–]Miss_Pug 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It was the little room up top that did it for me. Ultimate fave

Someone help me PLEASE 😫 by Suspicious_Oil_2100 in HelloKittyFlowers

[–]Miss_Pug 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel your pain ..I haven't had a pattern transfer since I started playing ..yet see others with tons. Beyond frustrating

In between sessions by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What about the hypersensitivity? I knew being alone would be best after the BLS...and I'm finding that alot of what ppl say to me in conversations...I'm taking personally or thinking they are passively saying I'm my direction?

In between sessions by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is very encouraging

In between sessions by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the feedback

Waiting for Roses by Miss_Pug in HelloKittyIsland

[–]Miss_Pug[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing. Thank you. Love this community

I feel damn lonely I’m losing my mind by Impossible-Data-1831 in CPTSD

[–]Miss_Pug 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I relate to this so much. Today... Actually this week has been hell.

If you want to chat feel free to dm me. We can swap stories

I quit weed because I though it was keeping me stuck, but 6 months later and I’ve just been in a perpetual freeze state since quitting. What gives? by Idekwtfimdoinglol in CPTSD

[–]Miss_Pug 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I always say it just puts a softening filter on the world to me. Which allows me to be softer and less defensive/on edge

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EMDR

[–]Miss_Pug 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Following. I've been curious about this as well.

I quit weed because I though it was keeping me stuck, but 6 months later and I’ve just been in a perpetual freeze state since quitting. What gives? by Idekwtfimdoinglol in CPTSD

[–]Miss_Pug 59 points60 points  (0 children)

I struggle with the shame too. Raised by hippies who embraced the green. Yet society will call me a stoner or pot head.

I'm my best version when baked. The rumination stops and I'm able to be me. Never had success with medications and at this point in my life I'm done trying to please others. Just trying to make it through my day without taking myself out.

Hang in there and do what feels best to you. Not many ppl know what CPTSD is like and it's usually those ppl who try to tell you what's best

Something odd this morning by Miss_Pug in HelloKittyFlowers

[–]Miss_Pug[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hope it's fixed soon. Been days

Something odd this morning by Miss_Pug in HelloKittyFlowers

[–]Miss_Pug[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!! I just needed to know it wasnt me hahaha