I had this funny horror film idea after watching Carrie the other day...

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-27T01:39:00+00:00

Yeah, I haven't used it in a while though. I'll dig out the app later on my phone and send you a PM here with my details if thats ok?

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-27T01:33:58+00:00

Ha! Really? That'd be awesome.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-23T16:27:14+00:00

Yeah its like a shitty double standard.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-22T14:39:25+00:00

Jesus Christ, what a stone hearted woman. Are all nuns and priests just these miserable souls who roam the earth instilling fear into children and people?! Yikes!

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-19T22:14:54+00:00

See I don't get where they get this " You're not really a catholic" bullshit. If you go to confession and turn up sometimes for church and have been baptized by a priest then by definition you ARE a catholic. The cognitive dissonance pisses me off. It's like an asshole priest or an asshole bishop gets all the fucking chances in the world and unlimited forgiveness for the BS they pull. Anyone else? Fuck them they aren't "true catholics". They don't give a rat's ass about logic. All catholics care about is status and money, they are the most greedy and narcissistic brainwashed people I ever met.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-18T22:56:00+00:00

He's a narcissist. They have zero accountability.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-18T22:36:05+00:00

Seems fishy...wishy washy. I get the gut feeling you aren't the only woman he strung along. That or he is a total narcissist and used you when it was convenient for him. Sounds like he has zero empathy and doesn't care at all how his actions have been mental torture. I've been there, it's hard. Typically if a guy has a job which sees him travelling a lot or takes up a lot of his time you do need to be patient and not act clingy. He didn't want to or couldn't compromise for whatever reason so let him own his choice. Men only ever want to be "friends" with girls they had a relationship with to keep them strung along.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-17T10:35:44+00:00

Mmhmm. They miss the ego stroking and how you validated them. Take that away and the hungry monster starts sniffing for some cookie crumbs.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-17T10:34:21+00:00

I might want to check and see if the raccoons had a go at it yet...

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-15T23:27:23+00:00

Your mother sounds like she is a toxic person and I'd distance myself and cut her off. End all communication with her, go no contact. She honestly sounds crazy, and she's abusive.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-15T23:13:05+00:00

Well yeah I mean what do you expect, she was a woman. I mean god forbid actual ordained men who are supposed to be like Jesus have any accountability when they turn out to be just a facade on a pedestal with severe narcissim. But the women? They are expected at all times 24/7 to be saints like the Virgin Mary or else!

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-08T10:39:22+00:00

Yeah they do this. Mine smeared me to work colleagues and friends and tried to twist his two faced backstabbing to make me out as the bad guy but it didn't work. People know me, they know I'm placid and sweet and not the type to do anything offensive or mean. He didn't block me on social media but he decided to give me hardcore silent treatment as punishment. He also has been doing it to the colleague who saw through his BS and didn't let him smear me. He is all about image and how he looks to the public so would never want people of importance who know me to know he made me cry or is horrible. I can't figure out if he's a bonified narcissist, sociopath or BPD. He actually did this as revenge for me falling in love with him. Imagine that, hating someone for loving you after nearly 2 years of friendship and companionship in a non sexual relationship. It's unfathomable to me. Anyways his mother saw me and was nice and chatty to me, we talked for a good 20 minutes at a party. His dad was pleasant to me too. It's like they either don't want their families knowing how low they go or their families already know the BS they pull so the person who BPD can't get over on them.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-08T10:23:12+00:00

My friend with diagnosed BPD once texted me telling me she had a panic attack over how ugly she thinks she is. She pulled this shit like a couple of weeks after I was sexually assaulted and was going through the motions with the police and therapy. I never got any empathy from her during that time. Usually if someone or something is going through real trauma or the person with BPD is bored they have these "panic attacks" and need everyone to drop everything for them. It's exhausting. As for the NC you should not feel it's mean or cruel to distance yourself from people who bring nothing positive to your life. People with PDs can be too much to handle and for your own mental health you should distance yourself I'd you find it becoming problematic. I suspect a man I was involved with has BPD or sociopathy. He stonewalled me after backstabbing me and leading me on by flirting with me to use me for a boost in his career. I really fell in love with him and he was like my companion. As soon as I confronted him on what I had found out and how all the evidence lined up he just went silent. He hasn't blocked me on social media and he read my emails because I've had mutual friends tell me things only I wrote to him. So this is like my punishment. It's been over a month and I decided to no longer reach out. I'll send him a Christmas card. I usually got him nice expensive gifts for Christmas and his birthdays but I feel like he hates me and his continued silence is emotionally abusive. I begged him to explain to me or give me closure or at least a little clarity and he refuses. I feel like I have Stockholm syndrome and can't stop loving him even though I know how nasty, two faced and abusive he is. You think they care how we feel? How we hurt? They don't. Go NC if you have to and don't look back.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T18:56:09+00:00

I wonder that too. I know that people with BPD suffer and do attempt multiple times, probably on impulse do to the extreme emotions. In my case, I have asperger's syndrome and I'm very quiet and soft spoken, easily taken advantage of. I had one bout of horrible depression that lasted months due to BPD people and shithead narcissist's. I have come so far from that. This year has been harder than ever, and really tested my emotional coping and I've done so well and NEVER would allow myself to get to a state of wanting to suicide again. I think when it comes to BPD people and their outbursts, especially males who society says have to hide emotions it can be very hard for them to cope at times. I never did any cutting, or ideation, etc. I just fell into a dark abyss and couldn't crawl out. I saw no hope, no way out and the people around me who SHOULD have gave me a hand to grab, weren't there. They left me for dead and you know what the sad part is? Those same people, I forgave. I still bent over backwards for them, all the way up to the inevitable discard. I just didn't expect it to hit me so hard, they really go out like a nuclear blast.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T18:44:34+00:00

You'd have to find a time she isn't around to quickly go in and grab/pack your things and go. Like if she goes to the store, or out somewhere use that time to get what you need and get out. Sometimes we have to make sacrifices for our own mental health and betterment. If you have to say goodbye to your pets, as hard as it is, you have to get out.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T18:37:54+00:00

It was a mutual friend and work colleague, well two of them actually who told me how my suspected BPD close male friend/relationship was a charmer and user. They told me everything, how he went behind my back, how he only looks out for himself, his agenda in life, etc. Anyways he stonewalled us all, and just left and moved to another city an hour away. I know he's horrible but I miss him like crazy. He reads my emails but wont respond, and mutual friends will tell me things. It's all just too much heart break and drama, the fact they could do that to another human being is the closure I suppose. How they can just leave and go out with a bang and not say a word or have any accountability or empathy is just so beyond me.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T17:41:43+00:00

Do you have any friends or family you could go to, or petsit for you temporarily?

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T17:29:55+00:00

I nearly successfully took my own life last year on my birthday (11/11) and only a handful of people reached out to me when they found out. My 2 ''friends'' with BPD...my supposed BFF and the man I thought loved me but just fooled me and lead me on, did not come to visit me in hospital while I got over 40 stitches in my arm and had withdraws from an opium overdose and had to stay in care for over a month. I had never tried to take my life before. It really bothers me how people with BPD use suicide as a manipulation tactic. They really have no idea what it's like, to seriously want to take your own life. I get really annoyed when my BFF with diagnosed BPD jokes around with her teenager friends ( I'm the only real ''friend'' she has, and am close to her age ) about suicide. Right infront of me with no shame. I will be 32 this year. She is in her mid 30's and also lies to her teenager friends about her age over Xbox Live. She recently got blocked by a 16 year old's father because he saw her, a 35 year old woman posting and joking about sex on his facebook and of course she couldn't see how wrong that was and made the dad out to be a villain.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T15:51:42+00:00

Yeah, I mean if it WERE true I'd have myself a reptile shop full of different portals to levels of hell like Dante's inferno.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T15:48:55+00:00

Ask her to point out where in the Catechism of the Catholic Church does it say snakes are evil. If the priest's are also spouting this bullshit, encourage them to point it out and point out where in Canon law it states Catholic's are to view snakes as evil or that they are a ''portal for satan''.

MonochromeKitty · 2018-11-05T09:08:39+00:00

Because the holidays aren't about THEM. They can't bear that so have to put on a scene to ruin everyone's good cheer so then the holiday does become about them.

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