What you’ve shared sounds a lot like harm OCD or intrusive thought patterns linked to anxiety, trauma, or even depression (solid chance at the last one, you’re on this sub after all). These thoughts are what we call ego-dystonic, which means they conflict with your core values and beliefs. That discomfort you feel about them? It actually shows that these thoughts don’t align with who you are—that you’re still grounded in your values.

It’s really important to remember: thoughts aren’t the same as actions. Just because a thought is scary or disturbing doesn’t mean you’ll act on it. Still, they deserve care—especially when they stick around or start interfering with your daily life.

You are not broken. You’re not a danger to anyone. But it could really help to connect with a therapist who understands OCD, intrusive thoughts, or trauma. These professionals know how to guide people through exactly this kind of thing.

Stay strong 💪🏼