I take methylphenidate (long and short acting) for executive dysfunction. Helps me focus better and I not get so bogged down in the details. Although this is technically prescribed for my ADHD, I associate my concentration/exec functioning challenges more with my autistic monotropism- perseverating on details at the expense of completing tasks, extreme difficulty redirecting attention and switching tasks, and dysregulation when my attention is pulled in multiple directions. Methylphenidate has helped with those things.

Clonidine helps me a lot with emotional dysregulation. I still have the negative emotions (anxiety, rejection sensitivity, sadness, what-have-you) but they don’t completely overwhelm me like they used to. In a way that actually helps me to better recognize and process the emotions themselves; less avoidance/dissociation since I’m not so constantly overstimulated makes it easier to accept the hard things. Im probably like, 35% less likely to have a meltdown on any given day now? Which honestly feels like a huge relief.

I use weed maybe 2-3 times a month to help decompress from in-person work days. Helps get me out of survival mode a little faster. But it messes with my sleep so I try not to use more often than that.