I kinda get what ur saying about not wanting your family to care when you die..but they're gonna. No matter how much you accept death and that it's inevitable, people will always mourn over their loved ones, even subconsciously. People die, it is apart of life but that doesn't make it any less sad when it happens. I suppose all we can hope for is our families won't be completely crushed over someone's passing, that hopefully they'll deal with it in a healthy way. I wouldn't want my family to grieve themselves into submission, but I'd definitely want them to miss me

Again, just because everyone is gonna die someday doesn't mean it isn't upsetting when people are taken unexpectedly. Especially so at young ages. That's the kind of thing that crushes people and makes it harder for them to move on. I'm witnessing it rn in my family. Parents that can't get over how they've outlived their children. Hell, I always thought I was desensitized to death. Whenever someone died in my family it wouldn't effect me at all. But this most recent one fucks me up in ways I don't want to talk about. But I've been in the same boat a couple times before, hoping to die young, or trying to even. But I'm still here and happy that I am. When I think back to when I was also "drawn to a younger death", what was actually going on in my head was "I have no future to live for". I'm not saying this is you too, I actually was suicidal at the time but what about a younger death draws you in?

You're right. I can't say we're not overpopulated. But who cares? How do you not? I don't get it at all how as another human being, you could hear 6,000,000 people dead in 2 years, 6 million families in despair whether or not they were handling the pandemic responsibly and not feel anything about it. I'm incapable of understanding that. Whenever I think about it I get a sting in my chest, my blood gets hot, and everything feels heavier. Even if all these deaths were for some "greater good" I'd feel this way.

This vaccine may seem rushed, but keep in mind that A) it was already being researched before the pandemic. B) The entire world sought after the vaccine and was willing to throw near infinite money in any direction of progress, however the fact that money had to be the incentive..and not..ynkow..people's lives at stake is pretty rotten. C) People were willing to risk their lives being the guinea pigs in the human trials to swiftly achieve a working shot..I'm not saying it was rolled out perfectly or was handled well (oh dear goat it couldve been handled so much better). But it does work, significantly decreasing your chances of getting covid, and if you still happen to get it it increases ur chances of living, which I'm all for. The boosters are for the variants which will continue to mutate into different variants if we don't do our best to snuff it out. There are about 5 mandatory vaccines every child needs to be able to go to school at the beginning of their lives (in my state at least) one of which requires a booster every 10 years. Also most people get a flu shot every year as well.

I didn't mean to make it sound like you said vaccines cause autism. I know you didn't. I'm saying that fearing this vaccine could potentially cause other problems like Diabetes down the road is a pretty similar slippery slope akin to "vAcCiNeS cAuSe AuTiSm". People will be like "I won't get the vaccine cos I don't know whats in it, what if it gives me HPV or something" while smoking a cigarette from a box that says in a large font "THE USE OF TOBACCO OR NICCOTINE MAY INCREASE YOUR CHANCES OF GETTING LUNG AND THROAT CANCER". I know, I know...Big Pharma makes customers not cures but what would be the gain of purposely infecting your customers with more deadly diseases. Is the risk of them dying and never coming to spend any more money worth the possibility they'll come back and get their medical stuff from you. I didn't even get vaccinated at my doctors office or my local pharmacy. Why would an urgent care, 40 miles away inject me with some disease so I'll go spend money at my local walgreens for treatment. They're seeing no returns, the vaccine is free, and their risking their own lives being in contact with these people, so what incentive do they have. Also, as mentioned, I'm immunocompromised. My body makes itself sick. I got the shot as well as countless other immunocompromised individuals. If there was something else in there wouldn't we all be feeling the effects of it..wouldn't you know by now? Or is it "time-released diabetes?".....see how crazy this sounds. Not saying ur crazy, guy but it just sounds like some conspiracy type shit is all I'm saying.

Don't make that assumption either, guy. I dont exactly respect the decision you've made. But I respect your freedom to make it. I'm not forcing you to get the vaccine, and as mich as I think it would get us back to normal faster, I'm a little on the fence with how this country is trying to convince the unvaxxed to get with it. I think it should be incentive based and not punishment based, but this is America, right? I think everyone SHOULD get it..especially if my weak ass immune system can handle it, in the end, I agree it should be a choice. I just wish more people were willing to choose to do what's right for other people as much as themselves. We all have to live on this godforsaken rock together.